Pandemic Update & More
Hello friends!! Things are a CHANGIN'. That's for sure. I am at work doing a morning shift (to make up for being out waiting for my Rona results) and I figured I'd bang out an update. Per usu it will be probably long af due to me not writing in here often enough. On top of it, Livejournal looks weird. Like it didn't fully load the site with pictures and stuff so I'm hoping I'm typing in the right box...=/
Where to even begin fam...alright, let's get a list going:
-Pandemic
-FW
-Protests
-Bae
I guess that a good enough place to start. PANDEMIC! Alright so it's now July and the US is what? 5 or 6 months officially into the pandemic. Shit's crazy. Absolutely disruptive and destructive to our daily lives and economy. The NY numbers are down, thankfully, and Cuomo is talking about moving into diff phases for diff areas of NY. So currently WNY is in phase 4. NYC is in phase 2 or 3. Phase 4 was supposed to include the reopening of gyms, schools, and malls but they have back peddled on that due to the rising cases in the southern states and Cali. *side note, I just checked google for LJ updates on if the sit is down and even on the work computer it's not fully loading...may be time to jump ship and move all my journal info into a diff file...ughhh..I'm too lazyyyy*. There was a Rona scare a couple weeks ago when Juette sent us a message in the group saying that she got a positive test back from her job. Man, that was stressful. I had been out shopping at the time and bought like $70 worth of groceries for "Just in case I'm quarantined for 2 weeks". I spent a lot of that week that I was off with Paige. We both had to await our Rona results. Hers came in way sooner than mine and was negative. Mine took another like 4 days, but mine was negative too, as well as Juette's mom and Mikaela. I think it was a false positive...Juette finished her quarantine and said she went for her retest yesterday. In terms of the virus in general...it's looking like it will be here for the long haul, man. At least until we can get a reliable vaccine. People are already saying that they won't be getting the vaccine because it's "not safe" or whatever. And there are still idiots out there who don't want to wear their mask appropriately which pisses me off when I'm out in a grocery store or something. Paige and I have gone out to check out a couple of different places. Cathode was shaddddy. No social distancing, no masks. The other place that was trash was Neat, the whisky bar. Same thing,no masks, people sitting at the bar with no distancing, getting up and walking around without masks...The politics of it is crazy too. The FL governor is like "We are not going to close back down. Closing is not the answer. We need to find out where it's happening most and just focus on those areas". I mean sure, that would be great, but people need to be aware that if we can't get citizens to respect those rules put in place then we are fucked either way. So dumb. "It's my right not to wear a mask"...like this isn't a political issue, it's a pandemic. Whatever man.
On to FW. I want to keep this kinda brief bc it's kinda a big headache, BUT, I was supposed to have gone on FW starting in May. It got pushed back to June by the RISD due to COVID. Makes sense. And I can't deny I was a bit happy that by having it pushed back, I could spend more time on this blossoming relationship. Welp, as we got close to the July start date, the RI OT started saying she wasn't sure what was going to be the situation with school reopening and finally she says that the reopening date has been moved to Aug 31st...Nooooooooooo! No I'm in a butt fucked position of trying to find summer FW bc yes I want to be on FW like most of my classmates, but even more than that I NEED THE MONEY FOR EXPENSES. Shit was so stressful and fin aid said for the most part there is nothing they can really do to help, I would need to apply for a major or a minor yada yada. SKRESSD. Donna emailed yesterday though and said there's a potential non traditional site that I could do and would be working with Daniela and Rachel. I was like, YUP! sign me up! We are in talks to finalize the spot now so fingers crossed that it works and is a smooth start. Trying to get unemployment has also been a GIGANTIC PAIN. It's been awful! I was reminded about SNAP by Howard though and applied. That was far simpler. They called and everything seemed fine. I am waiting on some paperwork they sent me and then have Dr. Martinez fill out a rent receipt and hopefully everything would be gucci to start SNAP benefits. We got this *deep breath* we got this, things will fall into place with all of this.
A little bit on the protests. They have calmed down a bit more now or maybe the media just isn't reporting on it anymore. It was QUITE a movement. Other countries were marching for BLM, companies are out here changing offenses brand images, saying they stand with BLM, yada yada. I mean...those things are clearly a marketing move to go with the popular political views, though I still personally feel like it's better than nothing. I don't know if I mentioned this before, but we joined in on two protests. First I've ever been to. It was a weird feeling. Kind of surreal but it felt powerful. Different kind of people there though Howard and Eliza would say there was not many Asian people there. It was cool to see people coming together in that sense. I also see where there was the change between the peaceful protests, which would end around 6 or something, that would then be followed by people sticking around or new people coming in for the more violent riots. Yea, the riots were wild too! I didn't go to any of them but I can't deny that I was fascinated with watching it through Twitter. Straight up anarchyyy. Equally, the police were ODing and not making it any better for themselves by continuing to be extremely unnecessarily violent. Mannnn and when that old white guy got pushed down and started bleeding from the ears in Buffalo??? Ooooooof. People were like WTFFFF is going on in Buffalo? They said the man fell, clear indication of them trying to cover the situation up and pretend like it was NBD. Bullshit. There was some weird stuff going on with flat beds of bricks appearing at protests that people felt were police supplied. Lots of messed up shit. There were (and potentially are) mysteriously consistent and expensive fireworks going off in different cities around the country at all kinds of hours of the night right as protests have been dying down...odd.
Lastly, Bae!! Alright, so I am in a pretty "bae" mood when referring to her. We are doing well and it feels good. Can't lie. We did have a fight a couple weeks ago. I call it a fight. She did not see it as a fight bc we "weren't even yelling" but I mean..our voices were raising at each other, we were at opposing ends of a disagreement. Nothing got solved. It stopped instantly when we got to her place and she was calling me babe and wanting to hold my hand, not acknowledging that she had just been pretty frustrated with me minutes before. It needs...to be further looked into for sure. But part of the conversation was around sex and me wanting it more often and how I enjoy trying different (kinkier) things than what she likes. So on the plus side of that, we are having more sex. Makes me think that she heard that part and was like okay so you want more sex, fine, done, this doesn't need to be a whole discussion. I'm glad we ARE having more sex, though low key we still going to need to talk about kinks and increasing comfort levels trying stuff bc we will get stale imo if we don't develop a sexual open dialogue. Soooo yea, besides that, things have felt good. She's met my parents, met Shai. They seem to like her, she seems to like them. We've been able to spend consistent days together. Most recently would be the 4/5 days we spent together while waiting for my results/me being off of work. It was normal and easy. I wasn't sure how long she was prepared to have me around so I was kind of preparing myself to gtfo whenever she gave the hint, but it never came. We "babe" each other a lot. I had been waiting for her to say she loved me without me saying it first. That came....I wanna say last week? We had just finished having sex and it was a good onnneee. Like there was after shocks of just kissing and moaning a little bit in content and her telling me how good it had felt. I turned her over to lay on her side with my arm wrapped around her neck and around her waist and she sighed and said "Love you, babe". HNNNNGGGG! You love to see it. I was like <3 <3. Cuddled into her and told her I loved her too. Couple days ago we were sitting in bed watching Westworld and I said something, being silly, followed by me asking how she puts up with me and she said "because I love ya". Very cute. I have noticed...yes I'm being a Cancer, LET ME LIVE! It's the month of the crab after all. I have noticed that she's saying it more "love you" and "love ya" as opposed to how I say "I love you". Super nitpicky, I KNOWWWWWWW. I'm just SAYING...I wonder and hope that the love she has for me is close to how I feel for her. Like romantic love, potentially on it's way to being IN love...as opposed to that thing where months from now I'm like ok but are you or can you see being IN love with me and she goes, "I mean I love you as a person". Just my anxiety fuckin with me. But it's very light anxiety, I will say. I overall feel happy and I'm enjoying this. I think she mentioned something today about going to her parents for kabobs? I'll have to ask her. Met Joey's mom a few days ago...her backyard was goalllllllsss. It looked like it would be a lot to maintain, but damn whatta beautiful layout.
Alright, I'm signing off!!
Where to even begin fam...alright, let's get a list going:
-Pandemic
-FW
-Protests
-Bae
I guess that a good enough place to start. PANDEMIC! Alright so it's now July and the US is what? 5 or 6 months officially into the pandemic. Shit's crazy. Absolutely disruptive and destructive to our daily lives and economy. The NY numbers are down, thankfully, and Cuomo is talking about moving into diff phases for diff areas of NY. So currently WNY is in phase 4. NYC is in phase 2 or 3. Phase 4 was supposed to include the reopening of gyms, schools, and malls but they have back peddled on that due to the rising cases in the southern states and Cali. *side note, I just checked google for LJ updates on if the sit is down and even on the work computer it's not fully loading...may be time to jump ship and move all my journal info into a diff file...ughhh..I'm too lazyyyy*. There was a Rona scare a couple weeks ago when Juette sent us a message in the group saying that she got a positive test back from her job. Man, that was stressful. I had been out shopping at the time and bought like $70 worth of groceries for "Just in case I'm quarantined for 2 weeks". I spent a lot of that week that I was off with Paige. We both had to await our Rona results. Hers came in way sooner than mine and was negative. Mine took another like 4 days, but mine was negative too, as well as Juette's mom and Mikaela. I think it was a false positive...Juette finished her quarantine and said she went for her retest yesterday. In terms of the virus in general...it's looking like it will be here for the long haul, man. At least until we can get a reliable vaccine. People are already saying that they won't be getting the vaccine because it's "not safe" or whatever. And there are still idiots out there who don't want to wear their mask appropriately which pisses me off when I'm out in a grocery store or something. Paige and I have gone out to check out a couple of different places. Cathode was shaddddy. No social distancing, no masks. The other place that was trash was Neat, the whisky bar. Same thing,no masks, people sitting at the bar with no distancing, getting up and walking around without masks...The politics of it is crazy too. The FL governor is like "We are not going to close back down. Closing is not the answer. We need to find out where it's happening most and just focus on those areas". I mean sure, that would be great, but people need to be aware that if we can't get citizens to respect those rules put in place then we are fucked either way. So dumb. "It's my right not to wear a mask"...like this isn't a political issue, it's a pandemic. Whatever man.
On to FW. I want to keep this kinda brief bc it's kinda a big headache, BUT, I was supposed to have gone on FW starting in May. It got pushed back to June by the RISD due to COVID. Makes sense. And I can't deny I was a bit happy that by having it pushed back, I could spend more time on this blossoming relationship. Welp, as we got close to the July start date, the RI OT started saying she wasn't sure what was going to be the situation with school reopening and finally she says that the reopening date has been moved to Aug 31st...Nooooooooooo! No I'm in a butt fucked position of trying to find summer FW bc yes I want to be on FW like most of my classmates, but even more than that I NEED THE MONEY FOR EXPENSES. Shit was so stressful and fin aid said for the most part there is nothing they can really do to help, I would need to apply for a major or a minor yada yada. SKRESSD. Donna emailed yesterday though and said there's a potential non traditional site that I could do and would be working with Daniela and Rachel. I was like, YUP! sign me up! We are in talks to finalize the spot now so fingers crossed that it works and is a smooth start. Trying to get unemployment has also been a GIGANTIC PAIN. It's been awful! I was reminded about SNAP by Howard though and applied. That was far simpler. They called and everything seemed fine. I am waiting on some paperwork they sent me and then have Dr. Martinez fill out a rent receipt and hopefully everything would be gucci to start SNAP benefits. We got this *deep breath* we got this, things will fall into place with all of this.
A little bit on the protests. They have calmed down a bit more now or maybe the media just isn't reporting on it anymore. It was QUITE a movement. Other countries were marching for BLM, companies are out here changing offenses brand images, saying they stand with BLM, yada yada. I mean...those things are clearly a marketing move to go with the popular political views, though I still personally feel like it's better than nothing. I don't know if I mentioned this before, but we joined in on two protests. First I've ever been to. It was a weird feeling. Kind of surreal but it felt powerful. Different kind of people there though Howard and Eliza would say there was not many Asian people there. It was cool to see people coming together in that sense. I also see where there was the change between the peaceful protests, which would end around 6 or something, that would then be followed by people sticking around or new people coming in for the more violent riots. Yea, the riots were wild too! I didn't go to any of them but I can't deny that I was fascinated with watching it through Twitter. Straight up anarchyyy. Equally, the police were ODing and not making it any better for themselves by continuing to be extremely unnecessarily violent. Mannnn and when that old white guy got pushed down and started bleeding from the ears in Buffalo??? Ooooooof. People were like WTFFFF is going on in Buffalo? They said the man fell, clear indication of them trying to cover the situation up and pretend like it was NBD. Bullshit. There was some weird stuff going on with flat beds of bricks appearing at protests that people felt were police supplied. Lots of messed up shit. There were (and potentially are) mysteriously consistent and expensive fireworks going off in different cities around the country at all kinds of hours of the night right as protests have been dying down...odd.
Lastly, Bae!! Alright, so I am in a pretty "bae" mood when referring to her. We are doing well and it feels good. Can't lie. We did have a fight a couple weeks ago. I call it a fight. She did not see it as a fight bc we "weren't even yelling" but I mean..our voices were raising at each other, we were at opposing ends of a disagreement. Nothing got solved. It stopped instantly when we got to her place and she was calling me babe and wanting to hold my hand, not acknowledging that she had just been pretty frustrated with me minutes before. It needs...to be further looked into for sure. But part of the conversation was around sex and me wanting it more often and how I enjoy trying different (kinkier) things than what she likes. So on the plus side of that, we are having more sex. Makes me think that she heard that part and was like okay so you want more sex, fine, done, this doesn't need to be a whole discussion. I'm glad we ARE having more sex, though low key we still going to need to talk about kinks and increasing comfort levels trying stuff bc we will get stale imo if we don't develop a sexual open dialogue. Soooo yea, besides that, things have felt good. She's met my parents, met Shai. They seem to like her, she seems to like them. We've been able to spend consistent days together. Most recently would be the 4/5 days we spent together while waiting for my results/me being off of work. It was normal and easy. I wasn't sure how long she was prepared to have me around so I was kind of preparing myself to gtfo whenever she gave the hint, but it never came. We "babe" each other a lot. I had been waiting for her to say she loved me without me saying it first. That came....I wanna say last week? We had just finished having sex and it was a good onnneee. Like there was after shocks of just kissing and moaning a little bit in content and her telling me how good it had felt. I turned her over to lay on her side with my arm wrapped around her neck and around her waist and she sighed and said "Love you, babe". HNNNNGGGG! You love to see it. I was like <3 <3. Cuddled into her and told her I loved her too. Couple days ago we were sitting in bed watching Westworld and I said something, being silly, followed by me asking how she puts up with me and she said "because I love ya". Very cute. I have noticed...yes I'm being a Cancer, LET ME LIVE! It's the month of the crab after all. I have noticed that she's saying it more "love you" and "love ya" as opposed to how I say "I love you". Super nitpicky, I KNOWWWWWWW. I'm just SAYING...I wonder and hope that the love she has for me is close to how I feel for her. Like romantic love, potentially on it's way to being IN love...as opposed to that thing where months from now I'm like ok but are you or can you see being IN love with me and she goes, "I mean I love you as a person". Just my anxiety fuckin with me. But it's very light anxiety, I will say. I overall feel happy and I'm enjoying this. I think she mentioned something today about going to her parents for kabobs? I'll have to ask her. Met Joey's mom a few days ago...her backyard was goalllllllsss. It looked like it would be a lot to maintain, but damn whatta beautiful layout.
Alright, I'm signing off!!