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well right now i am extremly frustated ,Tommy is like pushing me away. he doesnt want to talk to me and it is driving me crazy. i dont know why but it is. he is very cold towards me today. Yes, it is driving me crazy. I am trying to act like it doesnt bother me . i want to hang out with him. i miss him. Well anyways.
Tuesday > it was a much needed girls bonding night. Well it all started off so horrible ,i want to like kill me self. i sitting there counting the mintues until i could leave then relezed that sadly i was staying the night. There were too many people that hated each other there and it was just ... not a very friendly group that night. Well at like 11:30 , everyone was gone. I looked at the clock and thought, let the bitch fighting begin The tenson was everywhere. were very clicky & ready to attack at the monment someone started something. After much bitching & dirty looks we all were forced into the basement or mr. classen was gonig to kill us all. So we sat there, looking at each other waiting until one of us going to flip and call the rest of us sluts .. you know the usual bitch fights. well it didnt happen, i was shocked. We sat in slience , thinking how long we could go without blinking. Well finially beth came up with a wonderful idea. It was a game , i am not going to bore you with the rules or how to play. It was a game that we basically talked about what was pissing us off and other people asked questions. i dont wnat to go into detail or this entry will seriously be 20 million pages. so i am going give the major key things , well there was alot of crying , confertations , confessing, and laughing. For the first time in a year, i felt that everything was okay again. that i wouldnt lose someone who i missed without a doubt [doro]. It was an amazing time, i confronted emily , we talked it out. Everyone confronted everyone. you would think, it would be weird & filled with yelling. but no , not once did anyone yell or give a dirty look -- it was amazing. i am not going to lie , my girl is fulled with girls who are bitchs , we all know it . we are bitching all the time , but what are you going to do. we got though what we had to and now we are better. well we played this game for seriously 4 hours. it felt sooooo goood to get all of this out and in the open. so then we decied at 5 that the sun would be rising soon so we went outside to see it then ending up runing down center st and sitting in the middle of it until cars came , then we saw that the springlers were one , so we all ran to them and got complelty soaked . then we ran back to doro to change then at 6 in the morning we went out to eat [yummm] then we came back then went to bad at 9 then woke up at 2 to find the rain opening up to a huge thunder storm. then i went home at 4 , cleaned and went to bed at 10? i was so tired ... all nighters kill . I have a feelin that after Doro comes back, we all are gonig to hang out again & it will be the old group which i love. I cant wait =)
well yeah that is it , that is all i gotta say besides i miss him . i think he has moved on anyways. y[8gjsgo