Testing, One...two...
three...four...five...six...you get the point!
My life has turned into one giant string of tests lately. It's been a LONG time since I've been in classes that were this annoying and now I'm remembering why they were so annoying. Jumping through so much information in such a short time frame without any practical application for what is being learned and then having to spit it all back out on a test for a grade. Just not my preferred style of learning. I feel more stressed than not lately and I'm especially stressed right now because my MTTC Basic Skills test is this Saturday and I'm pretty nervous about it.
The math is the part that's causing me the most anxiety. I'm terrified of math and of taking tests in general and this is pretty much the worst combination of both of them. I just don't do well on standardized tests--I never have. And on top of it I am a product of a highly ineffective school system of the 80's and early 90's. We were actually "labeled" as 1, 3, or 5 depending on how smart (or not) we were and that was how classes were assigned. Talk about an archaic self-esteem busting way of doing things!
To me the whole system is flawed and dysfunctional. When someone who performs well with practical applications and written work fails to pass a test that is required in order to move forward I think that's a flaw in the system rather than a flaw in the person being tested. Whatever. These are not problems that are going to be solved or go away today so I may as well just stop the rant and do what I can do.
I am trying to set myself up for success and I sincerely hope it works. If it doesn't then I'll try again, like I always do. Today I literally burned (on paper) my fears of math and of being tested, along with my self doubt and negativity. Then I made a list in my journal of the qualities/attitudes I want to keep. Maybe on some level these symbolisms will help me become a better me, I guess we'll see.
Anyway...I just needed to vent a little, it's been a VERY stressful week or so and it's not likely to get any better until after this weekend. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SEND GOOD VIBES FOR ME ON SATURDAY!!
Peace Out,
Melba
My life has turned into one giant string of tests lately. It's been a LONG time since I've been in classes that were this annoying and now I'm remembering why they were so annoying. Jumping through so much information in such a short time frame without any practical application for what is being learned and then having to spit it all back out on a test for a grade. Just not my preferred style of learning. I feel more stressed than not lately and I'm especially stressed right now because my MTTC Basic Skills test is this Saturday and I'm pretty nervous about it.
The math is the part that's causing me the most anxiety. I'm terrified of math and of taking tests in general and this is pretty much the worst combination of both of them. I just don't do well on standardized tests--I never have. And on top of it I am a product of a highly ineffective school system of the 80's and early 90's. We were actually "labeled" as 1, 3, or 5 depending on how smart (or not) we were and that was how classes were assigned. Talk about an archaic self-esteem busting way of doing things!
To me the whole system is flawed and dysfunctional. When someone who performs well with practical applications and written work fails to pass a test that is required in order to move forward I think that's a flaw in the system rather than a flaw in the person being tested. Whatever. These are not problems that are going to be solved or go away today so I may as well just stop the rant and do what I can do.
I am trying to set myself up for success and I sincerely hope it works. If it doesn't then I'll try again, like I always do. Today I literally burned (on paper) my fears of math and of being tested, along with my self doubt and negativity. Then I made a list in my journal of the qualities/attitudes I want to keep. Maybe on some level these symbolisms will help me become a better me, I guess we'll see.
Anyway...I just needed to vent a little, it's been a VERY stressful week or so and it's not likely to get any better until after this weekend. PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE SEND GOOD VIBES FOR ME ON SATURDAY!!
Peace Out,
Melba