i have the kind of beauty that... moves
i've been really depressed lately. I know it's probably just cuz i'm pmsing, but it has more to do with all the little things that just keep going wrong. like today i was eating cheetos in italian class and swallowed my tongue ring.and my manager keeps over schedualing so i end up going o work only to be sent home and i'm not even getting near as many hours as i need. so to make myself feel better i went shopping today. i know its shallow but i just needed to get my mind off stuff for awhile. and i know i don't really have money to go shopping, but i just kinda needed to- partly because i'm running out of t-shirts since nothing else seems to fit over this cast. anyway i bought really sexy, lacy lingerie. it's light blue and i really ,llok good in it. i'm wearing it now hoping it will boost my confidence in myself because when i feel pretty and sexy i feel better about myself. even though that is a very shallow thing to say, it's true for me as it's true for everyone wheater they want to admit it or not. there are times when i feel just as good in sweats, but when i'm as depressed as i am now i just need something to make me feel good in some way. i'm just so frustrated because of my arm and how i can't do anything and it really hurts all the time. i want it off before John and i leave for spring break, but that won't happen. fuck me- nothing is going my way.