september came and everything was....
so it's exactly a year from when i left for rome. so weird...
i miss it so much, i've been feeling it in every cell of my body lately. i haven't gone anywhere except texas in march since being back from rome. that's the longest i've gone without a long-ish trip far from the east coast in like 6 years. i feel frustrated at my lack of money... and i feel even more hopeless and frustrated that even if i get money, i need it to pay back my student loans.
from now on, i will have $400 MORE a month in bills that i've previously had. that's so, so much money. i need to figure out how to make more money, and i hate it. i hate that the way things (school, loans, jobs) are structured literally compel people to take their part in capitalism and work work work work to pay back their bills. i don't want to work a serious job, i want to explore and travel and create. but in order not to have completely fucked credit and everything else i'm going to have to work full time....
i just don't know. i just wish i could grab ketch and hop on a plane to somewhere new and beautiful. we are both so broke with few avenues to not being broke. but i just want to take off with him, go to an exciting new place together.
i'm done with school! i've been making mental lists of people to pursue friendships with. i'm excited to have friends and weekly calendars of fun! bowling, gaming, movies, dinners, crafting, etc.... i'm down for it all. i'm so so so so excited to have that freedom again, i haven't had that since my first year in philly. every night i can go wherever and hangout with whoever! yay no homework!
i'm really curious about how my post-college life will pan out...
i miss it so much, i've been feeling it in every cell of my body lately. i haven't gone anywhere except texas in march since being back from rome. that's the longest i've gone without a long-ish trip far from the east coast in like 6 years. i feel frustrated at my lack of money... and i feel even more hopeless and frustrated that even if i get money, i need it to pay back my student loans.
from now on, i will have $400 MORE a month in bills that i've previously had. that's so, so much money. i need to figure out how to make more money, and i hate it. i hate that the way things (school, loans, jobs) are structured literally compel people to take their part in capitalism and work work work work to pay back their bills. i don't want to work a serious job, i want to explore and travel and create. but in order not to have completely fucked credit and everything else i'm going to have to work full time....
i just don't know. i just wish i could grab ketch and hop on a plane to somewhere new and beautiful. we are both so broke with few avenues to not being broke. but i just want to take off with him, go to an exciting new place together.
i'm done with school! i've been making mental lists of people to pursue friendships with. i'm excited to have friends and weekly calendars of fun! bowling, gaming, movies, dinners, crafting, etc.... i'm down for it all. i'm so so so so excited to have that freedom again, i haven't had that since my first year in philly. every night i can go wherever and hangout with whoever! yay no homework!
i'm really curious about how my post-college life will pan out...