Stardust and signaling.

May 09, 2006 19:52

Stardust and signaling.

In response to several comments on my last entry...

Maybe sad, but the kid got the general idea of the reference!
Considering I made it out of a freaking Death Cab lyric. The point isn't that I want someone to *tell* me the difference, or *explain* the difference. The idea was, I've spent all my life looking for a shooting star (love), as many of us had. I could have sworn I'd found one, and life felt amazing. Now, the only way to keep from pining away for him endlessly is to regard him as a fake. Not really a star, not really a love. The headline begs, "if something so amazing wasn't real (a satellite),then , sometime in life, please show me something that is (a star, true love)". "Show me the difference" because I can't imagine anything being better then what I/we had. I wasn't calling him a fake, though, or an imitation. Satellites aren't imitations because they're not meant to be or trying to be stars. They're manmade, they circle the planet receiving and sending information. There's nothing wrong with them, and they can still look pretty in the night sky. Plus they're easier to find because they move a little slower.
There's another way the analogy works: In this scenario, he *is* the shooting star (amazing while it lasts, but gone so fast), and I'm pondering whether I could find and be happy with a satellite (something practical, something that sticks around, something that while it maybe a bit dimmer, it'll still light my way). In this scenario, stationary stars are friends. They're beautiful and bright. While they don't last forever, they seem more stable. He was just a star. He shot across the sky and he stunned me. Now that he's gone, however, he didn't just stop moving and go back to being a good 'ol stationary star...he dropped out of the sky all together. So, the sky seems dim for now, and I miss being able to see the beauty of the lit ground in front of me.
Shooting star or satellite, all I want is my light back. Something to shine for me, and I'd light it's world with a twinkle in my eye, brighter when it made me smile.
"You be my star, I'll be your sky. You can hide underneath me, and come out at night when I turn jet black, and you show off your light. I live to let you shine. And you can skyrocket away from me; never come back if you find another galaxy far away, with more room to fly, just leave me your stardust to remember you by."

I REALLY wish he could see this. It explains a good lot.
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