5 outta 5 aint bad
Ya know when you get in one of those moods where you are so happy and feel that nothing can change that. Then all of a sudden someone says one thing, more like a phrase, and that mood flies off fasting then the butterflies you use to catch as a kid.
Timmy and me were driving back from Kahului, and we decided to take the long way. It was breathtaking. We passed Waikapu, a town chillin at the base of the Maui mountains. It was shaded by the clouds that were creeping down between the mountain peaks. I had wished I had brought my camera. On our left we Haleakala, shimmering in her spotlight from the sun that was peeking through patches of clouds. Heading down the Kuihelani highway, not many other cars besides us, I smiled so big it hurt. I have found a stretch of road that makes me feel like I am home. Not home as in I finally "feel at home", but home as in htown.
Mal and me walking down the streets, arm n'arm laughing about the things we would vaguely remember in the morning, only to discover our memory would never let us do that. Maddy and me in her backyard, swinging in the hammock, wheezing like old men from laughing too long. Lia and me glued to her tv watching Empire Records or the Craft; Cant Hardly Wait, each stretch out on the couchs quoting word for word while sipping mocha hot chocolates. Maryann showing up in flip flops, climbing in her car driving towards downtown, ordering desserts while pretending that we too could stay at Hotel Healdsburg. Amber asking me how I was doing and handing me a Chi Tea, listening to everyword, and then smiling or adding whatever comment to make me feel better. Ali's bed not being able to stay still during the night, but somehow in the morning once we saw all the liquor bottles we would laugh and go back to sleep. Moms cooking waking me, going down stairs seeing they went to church but she managed to set a side a plate for me. Jared not wanting to listen, me explaining why he should, us watching a movie late into the night munching on popcorn. Joshie sneaking into my dim bedroom, whispering my name, the covers lifting magically and a small warm boy curling into my side, only to be surprised by the tickle attack.
All of those things and many more are home to me. The simple regularities that made up my days, weeks, months.
Out here I have yet to find any.
After this amazing drive we went back to timmys. Chef was home and so was Sandy. Little flares went up in my head when I saw her but nothing I would take notice to. I sat down, they were eating in front of the tv.
First thing outta Sandys mouth "so how are things?"
Things to Sandy is my money situation.
I said good.
She then went on questioning me, about my raise and when I was gonna get a second job.
Normally I would answer but I said" I dont want to think about it, or talk about it."
MISTAKE!!!!
" well you need to think about it, do something about it...." I stopped listening and repeated myself.
See she does this everytime I see her now. I know she is concerned but please DONT FUCKING NAG ME!!!!!!!!
Granted the fact that I owe her and chef money, I understand why she would being pushy on the matter. But hey she knows where I live and that all I do is work to keep a rook on my head, and I am not gonna leave the Island without paying her back. Com on its $150 bucks, and she makes a fuckin buttload of cash right now anyways so she should worrry about herself and I will worry about myself. AAAGGGGGHHHHHhhhhh....................................
I feel better now.
But earlier I didnt. Timmy and I took off and headed to Big Beach. It was pretty chill and the sun was close to start on setting. Along the trail we noticed that there was a wedding taking place. We tried to walk around and not be loud but there were guys bodyboarding so the noise wasnt a problem.
It was a beautiful ceremony. I didnt cry. But the bride was a little. So they finished up and were taking pictures when a lot of people showed up. Not unusual except these ones were more weddings.
Timmy and I watched on as five couples were married today at Makena beach in Maui. FIVE!!!!! In one day.
But everyone looked beautiful and completely happy.
Driving back from the beach the dark Sandy cloud lifted and was replaced by hope and a joyous smile. I cant really describe the feeling I had but the closet was love. The feeling that you get when you want to be in love and everything around you is all lovey-dovey. Yea I guess thats kinda what it was like. I guess knowing someday I am gonna take the same oaths of devotion with all my family and friends watching on gives me butterflies. But thats years off. Right.
Sorry this was so long. I havent really written anything the past couple days, cause nothing was worth writing..
yea....
Timmy and me were driving back from Kahului, and we decided to take the long way. It was breathtaking. We passed Waikapu, a town chillin at the base of the Maui mountains. It was shaded by the clouds that were creeping down between the mountain peaks. I had wished I had brought my camera. On our left we Haleakala, shimmering in her spotlight from the sun that was peeking through patches of clouds. Heading down the Kuihelani highway, not many other cars besides us, I smiled so big it hurt. I have found a stretch of road that makes me feel like I am home. Not home as in I finally "feel at home", but home as in htown.
Mal and me walking down the streets, arm n'arm laughing about the things we would vaguely remember in the morning, only to discover our memory would never let us do that. Maddy and me in her backyard, swinging in the hammock, wheezing like old men from laughing too long. Lia and me glued to her tv watching Empire Records or the Craft; Cant Hardly Wait, each stretch out on the couchs quoting word for word while sipping mocha hot chocolates. Maryann showing up in flip flops, climbing in her car driving towards downtown, ordering desserts while pretending that we too could stay at Hotel Healdsburg. Amber asking me how I was doing and handing me a Chi Tea, listening to everyword, and then smiling or adding whatever comment to make me feel better. Ali's bed not being able to stay still during the night, but somehow in the morning once we saw all the liquor bottles we would laugh and go back to sleep. Moms cooking waking me, going down stairs seeing they went to church but she managed to set a side a plate for me. Jared not wanting to listen, me explaining why he should, us watching a movie late into the night munching on popcorn. Joshie sneaking into my dim bedroom, whispering my name, the covers lifting magically and a small warm boy curling into my side, only to be surprised by the tickle attack.
All of those things and many more are home to me. The simple regularities that made up my days, weeks, months.
Out here I have yet to find any.
After this amazing drive we went back to timmys. Chef was home and so was Sandy. Little flares went up in my head when I saw her but nothing I would take notice to. I sat down, they were eating in front of the tv.
First thing outta Sandys mouth "so how are things?"
Things to Sandy is my money situation.
I said good.
She then went on questioning me, about my raise and when I was gonna get a second job.
Normally I would answer but I said" I dont want to think about it, or talk about it."
MISTAKE!!!!
" well you need to think about it, do something about it...." I stopped listening and repeated myself.
See she does this everytime I see her now. I know she is concerned but please DONT FUCKING NAG ME!!!!!!!!
Granted the fact that I owe her and chef money, I understand why she would being pushy on the matter. But hey she knows where I live and that all I do is work to keep a rook on my head, and I am not gonna leave the Island without paying her back. Com on its $150 bucks, and she makes a fuckin buttload of cash right now anyways so she should worrry about herself and I will worry about myself. AAAGGGGGHHHHHhhhhh....................................
I feel better now.
But earlier I didnt. Timmy and I took off and headed to Big Beach. It was pretty chill and the sun was close to start on setting. Along the trail we noticed that there was a wedding taking place. We tried to walk around and not be loud but there were guys bodyboarding so the noise wasnt a problem.
It was a beautiful ceremony. I didnt cry. But the bride was a little. So they finished up and were taking pictures when a lot of people showed up. Not unusual except these ones were more weddings.
Timmy and I watched on as five couples were married today at Makena beach in Maui. FIVE!!!!! In one day.
But everyone looked beautiful and completely happy.
Driving back from the beach the dark Sandy cloud lifted and was replaced by hope and a joyous smile. I cant really describe the feeling I had but the closet was love. The feeling that you get when you want to be in love and everything around you is all lovey-dovey. Yea I guess thats kinda what it was like. I guess knowing someday I am gonna take the same oaths of devotion with all my family and friends watching on gives me butterflies. But thats years off. Right.
Sorry this was so long. I havent really written anything the past couple days, cause nothing was worth writing..
yea....