Life
What do you do when you feel part of yourself had died? Especially when you feel its the part that best defined you as a person?
I feel like a shell of who I used to be. Can you see the emptiness behind my eyes?
All the passion, all the soulful independence, I feel like I left it somewhere - without leaving myself directions on how to find it again...
I've been trying to reconnect with everyone I've loved from my past, trying to find it. Hoping it lies hidden somewhere in my history. At least that has been a little reassuring. I still see pieces of my old self when I speak with them. I laugh like I haven't in ages and I start to feel like my old self again.
Maybe I'm smothering or drowning here. Maybe that's why I can't seem to find myself anymore. I wish I knew. For now, all I can do is continue to reach out to those who knew me as I once was - I seem to be that person again then.
I miss her...