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I. feel. Lonely. and. Confused.
Won't someody help me? I dont hold out much hope for that though.
I'm sad. My dog Kaya....he has some sort of tumor in his stomach. What did I FUCKING say. I posted it a while ago that he wouldnt live past this year. I hate it. I hate knowing, I hate seeing it and feeling it. I know death. I hated seeing Kaya today and then my mom having to call Larry (who's in Michigan cuz his cousin died) and tell him that his dog is sick. That for the second time in a matter of months we're gonna have to fucking put down a dog. I LOVE dogs, probably more than people actually. I dont know why this year its all happened. My mom started crying and she always said she hated the dog. Its so fucking depressing. But I mean, this dog is really old. He's going blind (i can tell) and his bones are so old its hard for him to go down/up stairs. But I still hate it.
God, and I'm really pissed about another thing. Which I cant write about on here but its something that bugs me. Its only fucking high school. 2 years and I'm out.
Oh, but I did good stuff today. I went to the mall in Shaumburg with my mom. We both got dresses lol, and I bought this weird pillow thingy. It sounds dumb but its not a normal pillow, its this one from a store and its the softest pillow ever! Its awesome. I also got the Radiohead cd, Hail to the Thief. Havent had a listen yet. I like listening to cds for the first time with headphones on and with the lyrics in front of me. Its kinda a ritual haha. Umm then me and my mom watched Bowling for Columbine. It was great, my mom really likes Michael Moore. I also rented Secret Window. Gonna watch that tomorrow night. I ordered my school books too, that was pretty good. Also picked out what I want from Lands End. My mom is gonna hem my skirt soon too. So good stuff. Uhhh now its 10:50. Jons not really online...so I guess we're not doing anything tomorrow....So whatever. Maybe he'll come on later.
People dont like me anymore. Thats sad. No one talks to me or comments me or calls me haha. I don cur! I do wut I want. Maybe I should stop coming online lol. I'm kinda sick of it, or get a new sn and not give it out. I dunno. I'm in a weird mood. A bitchy one pretty much. I also noticed something REALLY funny and ironic that I have to tell Laura. Its so amusing, because it proves even more this point that we have. We dont have friends! lol. But now I feel bad saying that. I'm just mean.
I want a puppy. And I want friends. And I want something else.
~Shayla~
Won't someody help me? I dont hold out much hope for that though.
I'm sad. My dog Kaya....he has some sort of tumor in his stomach. What did I FUCKING say. I posted it a while ago that he wouldnt live past this year. I hate it. I hate knowing, I hate seeing it and feeling it. I know death. I hated seeing Kaya today and then my mom having to call Larry (who's in Michigan cuz his cousin died) and tell him that his dog is sick. That for the second time in a matter of months we're gonna have to fucking put down a dog. I LOVE dogs, probably more than people actually. I dont know why this year its all happened. My mom started crying and she always said she hated the dog. Its so fucking depressing. But I mean, this dog is really old. He's going blind (i can tell) and his bones are so old its hard for him to go down/up stairs. But I still hate it.
God, and I'm really pissed about another thing. Which I cant write about on here but its something that bugs me. Its only fucking high school. 2 years and I'm out.
Oh, but I did good stuff today. I went to the mall in Shaumburg with my mom. We both got dresses lol, and I bought this weird pillow thingy. It sounds dumb but its not a normal pillow, its this one from a store and its the softest pillow ever! Its awesome. I also got the Radiohead cd, Hail to the Thief. Havent had a listen yet. I like listening to cds for the first time with headphones on and with the lyrics in front of me. Its kinda a ritual haha. Umm then me and my mom watched Bowling for Columbine. It was great, my mom really likes Michael Moore. I also rented Secret Window. Gonna watch that tomorrow night. I ordered my school books too, that was pretty good. Also picked out what I want from Lands End. My mom is gonna hem my skirt soon too. So good stuff. Uhhh now its 10:50. Jons not really online...so I guess we're not doing anything tomorrow....So whatever. Maybe he'll come on later.
People dont like me anymore. Thats sad. No one talks to me or comments me or calls me haha. I don cur! I do wut I want. Maybe I should stop coming online lol. I'm kinda sick of it, or get a new sn and not give it out. I dunno. I'm in a weird mood. A bitchy one pretty much. I also noticed something REALLY funny and ironic that I have to tell Laura. Its so amusing, because it proves even more this point that we have. We dont have friends! lol. But now I feel bad saying that. I'm just mean.
I want a puppy. And I want friends. And I want something else.
~Shayla~