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yesterday wasnt bad. i went to breakfast w the family...slept all afternoon then went to hibachi w mary for dinner since i wasnt able to go out with her and jeff, tyler and katie the day before-they didnt even go to hibachi like they planned. then chilled w mary..we're gonna try to make the hibachi's onion soup..we're dorks i know but its worth a shot..that stuff is so awesome. we've got the ingredients and we're gonna make it tuesday night when i stay the night.
so as for today...im rather nervous for tonight, cauz its the night me and my parents are gonna have that serious talk about my college plans...i hope it works out ok. all i know is im going to kent in the fall and thats my choice..and they already told me that i need to run my own life (which they totally wouldnt of said a week ago...Bernie helped tremendously, thanks goodness my dad called him.
i am feeling a little left out in terms of my high school friends...it just goes to show that most of them werent my real friends anyhow..im not saying all just some. and it hurts but i'm over it. i know who my real friends are...i mean basically i hang with my giant eagle friends at home now and a select couple high school people. they are the people that matter, what can i say.
the worst part about coming home is that now i dont want to leave. it always happens. at least this is my last time i'll have to leave for a while..the next time im home, i'll be back for good. and that feeling will be so sweet..i cant wait for it.
7 weeks left of school..i dont think i'll survive, i really dont think so. i dont think i can stand another weekend of being in my room by myself doing work and thats it. i cant do that anymore. i really think im just gonna need to wing it for the rest of the semester for my body's sake as well as for my own sanity. i already know im not gonna do very well...but im doing even worse freaking out about my grades and cramming for everything beyond max. that makes me do worse (hence that bio grade). as much as everyone else around me will be freaking out about their grades, im gonna have to bite my lip and not think about it. then when i come home things will hopefully be all good again.
i hope after tonight, my future will be more certain in terms of school...
oh yeah..i think im getting sick..damn..i jinx myself every time.
so as for today...im rather nervous for tonight, cauz its the night me and my parents are gonna have that serious talk about my college plans...i hope it works out ok. all i know is im going to kent in the fall and thats my choice..and they already told me that i need to run my own life (which they totally wouldnt of said a week ago...Bernie helped tremendously, thanks goodness my dad called him.
i am feeling a little left out in terms of my high school friends...it just goes to show that most of them werent my real friends anyhow..im not saying all just some. and it hurts but i'm over it. i know who my real friends are...i mean basically i hang with my giant eagle friends at home now and a select couple high school people. they are the people that matter, what can i say.
the worst part about coming home is that now i dont want to leave. it always happens. at least this is my last time i'll have to leave for a while..the next time im home, i'll be back for good. and that feeling will be so sweet..i cant wait for it.
7 weeks left of school..i dont think i'll survive, i really dont think so. i dont think i can stand another weekend of being in my room by myself doing work and thats it. i cant do that anymore. i really think im just gonna need to wing it for the rest of the semester for my body's sake as well as for my own sanity. i already know im not gonna do very well...but im doing even worse freaking out about my grades and cramming for everything beyond max. that makes me do worse (hence that bio grade). as much as everyone else around me will be freaking out about their grades, im gonna have to bite my lip and not think about it. then when i come home things will hopefully be all good again.
i hope after tonight, my future will be more certain in terms of school...
oh yeah..i think im getting sick..damn..i jinx myself every time.