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i want to live anywhere that is not here, work anywhere that is NOT ciao baby and not know anyone i have come in to contact ever in my life.
i want a fresh start but unfortunately its not as feasible as i think it could be.
its not that i dont love those who i know.
its just time for something different.
i have a problem that i'm trying to help but everyday it get easier and easier to drink.
and when i think of the few things that i have that i could easily let slip through my fingers because of my own stupidity...i want to hurt myself. in one way or another for being so stupid.
and yet..."its, the strangest thing but i feel safest when i'm lonely"
kudos to you for knowing where thats from. and yet its true.
instability is my support but i would like to get clean. completely. its the only things that can get me where i want to be.
i've decided to take up acting as a hobby. i've always wanted to try it so why not? you never know.
winter's right around the corner and we know that only means bad things for me.
god i hope i can make it through this one. i dont have the usuals in my life like i used to and that a hard adjustment to make.
i dont know if i will make it. but maybe i will make it out of here before the time comes.
i want a fresh start but unfortunately its not as feasible as i think it could be.
its not that i dont love those who i know.
its just time for something different.
i have a problem that i'm trying to help but everyday it get easier and easier to drink.
and when i think of the few things that i have that i could easily let slip through my fingers because of my own stupidity...i want to hurt myself. in one way or another for being so stupid.
and yet..."its, the strangest thing but i feel safest when i'm lonely"
kudos to you for knowing where thats from. and yet its true.
instability is my support but i would like to get clean. completely. its the only things that can get me where i want to be.
i've decided to take up acting as a hobby. i've always wanted to try it so why not? you never know.
winter's right around the corner and we know that only means bad things for me.
god i hope i can make it through this one. i dont have the usuals in my life like i used to and that a hard adjustment to make.
i dont know if i will make it. but maybe i will make it out of here before the time comes.