for those in peril on the sea
when i wrote my last entry i was on mushrooms and it was fantastic.
i dont remember much of the past week or two except for a few key highlights.
Adam took me to see Rent a couple of weeks ago and that was amazing.
mushroom day was the best day i've had in a very long time but unfortunately these things dont last very long.
thoughts scattered. its the way my mind works. just random flashes of ideas, people, places, feelings and experiences.
best friends arent friends much anymore. and i guess i'm ok with that. i always knew i didnt really need anyone but myself anyway.
i'm getting that feeling again. the one where i want to go explore everything. i want to see the way other people grow up and live and how different cultures live. and i want to know it all. why people think the way they do. how artist can instinctually see below the surface.
i want to know it all and yet for some reason becoming motivated to do anything is getting harder and harder. i just need a complete change from all of this. i dont like anyone, anything and i need to get away from my own thoughts.
seeing as you're still only 3 mile away, it seems i'm going to have to be the one to change this. because even now i still remember the first time i ever saw you. and remembering that i wonder if , in that moment...
nah. forget it.
last night was sweet, hanging out with those sweet girls, so young and reminding me of how i used to how have their optimism and thirst for life.
its refreshing and depressing. and oh the 2 wonderful boys joey and alex. refreshing and lovely.
and seeing two people i graduated with....and the reminders of how high school friendships dont last. even for me. even with the best of friends.
especially when theres something better.
i've been watching movies about the beach and california lifestyle.
surfings skating just living day to day not worrying about the future.
imagine thats all you had to live for?
it sounds appealing
on a less depressing note.
i'm going to see the mars volta and the red hot chilli peppers on October 17th. and i am extremely excited for it.
and january. maybe time for a big change?
it sounds like a good idea.
i dont remember much of the past week or two except for a few key highlights.
Adam took me to see Rent a couple of weeks ago and that was amazing.
mushroom day was the best day i've had in a very long time but unfortunately these things dont last very long.
thoughts scattered. its the way my mind works. just random flashes of ideas, people, places, feelings and experiences.
best friends arent friends much anymore. and i guess i'm ok with that. i always knew i didnt really need anyone but myself anyway.
i'm getting that feeling again. the one where i want to go explore everything. i want to see the way other people grow up and live and how different cultures live. and i want to know it all. why people think the way they do. how artist can instinctually see below the surface.
i want to know it all and yet for some reason becoming motivated to do anything is getting harder and harder. i just need a complete change from all of this. i dont like anyone, anything and i need to get away from my own thoughts.
seeing as you're still only 3 mile away, it seems i'm going to have to be the one to change this. because even now i still remember the first time i ever saw you. and remembering that i wonder if , in that moment...
nah. forget it.
last night was sweet, hanging out with those sweet girls, so young and reminding me of how i used to how have their optimism and thirst for life.
its refreshing and depressing. and oh the 2 wonderful boys joey and alex. refreshing and lovely.
and seeing two people i graduated with....and the reminders of how high school friendships dont last. even for me. even with the best of friends.
especially when theres something better.
i've been watching movies about the beach and california lifestyle.
surfings skating just living day to day not worrying about the future.
imagine thats all you had to live for?
it sounds appealing
on a less depressing note.
i'm going to see the mars volta and the red hot chilli peppers on October 17th. and i am extremely excited for it.
and january. maybe time for a big change?
it sounds like a good idea.