Worst Week Ever.
I didn't really feel like updating this thing...but whatever.
This week sucks. End of story. It is so hard emotionally and physically. I'm under so much stress.
Paul I miss you so much and i know everyone else does too. You were such an awesome guy. You will forever live in my heart. I promise I won't ever forget you or any of the memories I have with you. I miss the confused look you always gave me and that dorky laugh of yours. You were one of a kind Paul.
I never realized how much each and every one of my friends really means to me and how much i love every single one of them. Its unbelievable how this tradgedy made me feel. I've never had anyone in my life die. So this was the first experience I've had. Ouch guys. It hurts BAD. :( I know that things will get back to normal...but its gonna take time. Im trying to be strong cuz I know Paul wouldn't want us all crying and sad...I'm sure he would want to see everyone happy. My goal is to make it through a day without crying...haven't done it yet.
All of this also made me realize how short and valuable life is. Cherish it guys. It could end just like that.
So on top of this horrible situation. My family isn't doing good financially at all. Christmas is 2 weeks away...yeah we're definately not having a Christmas. My mom told me today that she can't afford to get anyone presents this year...including me. So like Im not a selfish person and I mean there isn't really anything I want and I have pretty much everything that i really need. Its not even the fact of the presents that makes me sad...It's knowing that we are actually doing that bad money wise that kinda makes me sad. And I'm not looking forward to going back to school after break and hearing what everyone got and I know people are gonna ask like "Oh what are you asking for for Christmas?" or "What did you get for Christmas?" I'm gonna feel so dumb saying nothing. And what makes me even more sad is that I have a 140$ cell phone bill to pay so that's where all of my money is going to so I can't even buy anyone presents either. God I really hate being poor. I can't wait to grow up and get through college so I can get a really good job and make a lot of money. Just wait. Im so determined to be rich when Im older. Just wait.
Work was fun tonite. Thats one good thing. We got in a parmeasan fight. Oh but i fell really hard and got a fat bruise on my leg. So i guess it isn't so good.
Life sucks...I just wanna grow up already.
This week sucks. End of story. It is so hard emotionally and physically. I'm under so much stress.
Paul I miss you so much and i know everyone else does too. You were such an awesome guy. You will forever live in my heart. I promise I won't ever forget you or any of the memories I have with you. I miss the confused look you always gave me and that dorky laugh of yours. You were one of a kind Paul.
I never realized how much each and every one of my friends really means to me and how much i love every single one of them. Its unbelievable how this tradgedy made me feel. I've never had anyone in my life die. So this was the first experience I've had. Ouch guys. It hurts BAD. :( I know that things will get back to normal...but its gonna take time. Im trying to be strong cuz I know Paul wouldn't want us all crying and sad...I'm sure he would want to see everyone happy. My goal is to make it through a day without crying...haven't done it yet.
All of this also made me realize how short and valuable life is. Cherish it guys. It could end just like that.
So on top of this horrible situation. My family isn't doing good financially at all. Christmas is 2 weeks away...yeah we're definately not having a Christmas. My mom told me today that she can't afford to get anyone presents this year...including me. So like Im not a selfish person and I mean there isn't really anything I want and I have pretty much everything that i really need. Its not even the fact of the presents that makes me sad...It's knowing that we are actually doing that bad money wise that kinda makes me sad. And I'm not looking forward to going back to school after break and hearing what everyone got and I know people are gonna ask like "Oh what are you asking for for Christmas?" or "What did you get for Christmas?" I'm gonna feel so dumb saying nothing. And what makes me even more sad is that I have a 140$ cell phone bill to pay so that's where all of my money is going to so I can't even buy anyone presents either. God I really hate being poor. I can't wait to grow up and get through college so I can get a really good job and make a lot of money. Just wait. Im so determined to be rich when Im older. Just wait.
Work was fun tonite. Thats one good thing. We got in a parmeasan fight. Oh but i fell really hard and got a fat bruise on my leg. So i guess it isn't so good.
Life sucks...I just wanna grow up already.