Ughhh...I Wanna Give Up!!!!
I just got really pissed off all of a sudden!!!!!! Ughhh!!!!!!!
Why!!! WHY!!!
"Don't make promises you can't keep" has to be one of the most famous "sayings" in the English language.
Sadly enough, it speaks so much truth.
Sadly enough, I have learned that the hard way.
Of My Bedroom
Sitting in the dark
Of my bedroom
Pondering
About my life
About my future
About my past
Sitting on my bed
Of my bedroom
Thinking of sleeping
Thinking of awakening
Thinking of dreaming
Looking out the window
Of my bedroom
Watching the night sky
Looking into the universe
Making a wish
Glaring at the walls
Of my bedroom
Coated with white paint
Covered with posters
Decorated with flare
This is what
Surrounds me and my life
This is what
Represents me
This is what is
Of my bedroom
I promised myself that I would never cry tears over you, but I have.
I didn't want to cry tears over you because I thought I would be alright.
You didn't reject me, you just didn't accept me for what I wanted you to accept me for.
I was content with that.
I was happy that you still accepted me as a friend, a close one at that.
I figured my life as a new found sixteen year old would continue with no regrets or over running emotions.
I was wrong... dead wrong.
All of a sudden, like a slap in the face, I realized that I spent too long loving you.
I didn't waste my time.
I don't regret ever loving you.
....Never again...Will i trust something like the feeling i felt for you...
..Saying that is like a thousand knifes...Into my lungs...
-Mel