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Birth by sleep is pretty good, I'm enjoying it a lot.
I've been feeling kind of depressed and worried lately, and I've been trying to keep myself occupied so I don't freak out.. It's rapidly approaching the time for me to get myself a job. I just don't know what I'm going to do. I have always had a hard time finding new jobs because I am not very good at selling myself, even though I have a lot to offer. I'm worried about the hours I want, and I'm worried about what kind of place I'll be at. It's been a long time since I had a job, it doesn't feel like that long but it's been quite some time. I really wish I could find some sort of secretary job, I type pretty quickly and I'm good with people (when I want to be). But I imagine most of them need some sort of experience.
I'm also a little nervous about the move.. We're spending a lot of Sean's money and I feel incredibly bad that I have nothing to contribute. I'm going to try to get mom to send me some of the stuff from home, and I'll be on the job hunt as soon as I get home from visiting don at the beginning of october. Just so many things on my mind, I wish I knew what to do with them all. I feel like I'm going to explode in a ball of angst sometimes. Hopefully things will go alright. Either way I don't have a choice but to try and make the best of everything. Time for me to step up and get things done.
Matt got his second offer on the house taken, so yay for him having a super sweet house coming in. And it seems as if he will be getting a raise soon, so that'll help too. I'm really happy for him.
So many things that I can't even talk about, my brain feels like a whirlwind some days. I guess it's back to distractions and getting things done one at a time. Still.. sometimes it's hard to drag myself out of feeling like this. I feel so lost so often, I wonder how I'm even getting by. OH GOD INNER TURMOIL AAAAUUUGggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Oh well. *sigh* Looks like we won't have internet at the new place for awhile once we're in it too. Yay.
I've been feeling kind of depressed and worried lately, and I've been trying to keep myself occupied so I don't freak out.. It's rapidly approaching the time for me to get myself a job. I just don't know what I'm going to do. I have always had a hard time finding new jobs because I am not very good at selling myself, even though I have a lot to offer. I'm worried about the hours I want, and I'm worried about what kind of place I'll be at. It's been a long time since I had a job, it doesn't feel like that long but it's been quite some time. I really wish I could find some sort of secretary job, I type pretty quickly and I'm good with people (when I want to be). But I imagine most of them need some sort of experience.
I'm also a little nervous about the move.. We're spending a lot of Sean's money and I feel incredibly bad that I have nothing to contribute. I'm going to try to get mom to send me some of the stuff from home, and I'll be on the job hunt as soon as I get home from visiting don at the beginning of october. Just so many things on my mind, I wish I knew what to do with them all. I feel like I'm going to explode in a ball of angst sometimes. Hopefully things will go alright. Either way I don't have a choice but to try and make the best of everything. Time for me to step up and get things done.
Matt got his second offer on the house taken, so yay for him having a super sweet house coming in. And it seems as if he will be getting a raise soon, so that'll help too. I'm really happy for him.
So many things that I can't even talk about, my brain feels like a whirlwind some days. I guess it's back to distractions and getting things done one at a time. Still.. sometimes it's hard to drag myself out of feeling like this. I feel so lost so often, I wonder how I'm even getting by. OH GOD INNER TURMOIL AAAAUUUGggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
Oh well. *sigh* Looks like we won't have internet at the new place for awhile once we're in it too. Yay.