fades in
i was wondering when the loneliness became so powerful in my life? i cant remember the exact moment..
it was time when i was so much enjoying it. did i enjoy it too much that it turned to another side? that it decided to go against me? is it punishing me for cheating on her?
why i am writing it...why i am waiting for the last possible moment to use internet....not because it is Raining...not because that i dont want that your bag would get wet...but it works as excuse , for myself, at least...
and fuck the loneliness is powerful...it gives you the understanding, if you know, how to use it...of course you can lay on the bed for days and be lonely, without thinking about anything..but for my understanding, the loneliness works in different way,,,,
it is strange..it is all the time defined as the sad feeling...but maybe it is sad as it is so beautiful...
i guess i know why loneliness was working for me for such a long time..because we cooperated...because it was creative...because there were becoming something from it...it gave thoughts,,,so many unbelievable thoughts...it gave desire and passion.......
sometimes you can be so lonely even being with someone..i dont know this feeling...in this case i would prefer to by myself..it is much more easier...
and it so easy with you...
cause we are both perfect
it was time when i was so much enjoying it. did i enjoy it too much that it turned to another side? that it decided to go against me? is it punishing me for cheating on her?
why i am writing it...why i am waiting for the last possible moment to use internet....not because it is Raining...not because that i dont want that your bag would get wet...but it works as excuse , for myself, at least...
and fuck the loneliness is powerful...it gives you the understanding, if you know, how to use it...of course you can lay on the bed for days and be lonely, without thinking about anything..but for my understanding, the loneliness works in different way,,,,
it is strange..it is all the time defined as the sad feeling...but maybe it is sad as it is so beautiful...
i guess i know why loneliness was working for me for such a long time..because we cooperated...because it was creative...because there were becoming something from it...it gave thoughts,,,so many unbelievable thoughts...it gave desire and passion.......
sometimes you can be so lonely even being with someone..i dont know this feeling...in this case i would prefer to by myself..it is much more easier...
and it so easy with you...
cause we are both perfect