Just stuff

[mekesss]

I'm feeling very... unmotivated.

I don't feel like gaming, watching tv, fapping, eating, or even getting off my ass and into my bed...

i barely feel like typing this shit out... im forcing myself too to figure out wtf is wrong with me. i've generally felt like this all this week, for no reason really. i might know the cause of it, i don't THINK its the reason but im certain it'll help...

i think i just might have something that'll kill me on hand that won't be painful... tho if it fails, it will. tho i couldn't care less about doing it either.

what the hell is wrong with me?
who the fuck cares?
why am i'm bitching over the internet?
why am i'm asking stupid questions?
does anything even fucking matter?
does even asking if it fucking matters... fucking matter?
does asking about asking about it mattering fucking matter?
does ask... yeah you get the idea... right?
why can't i just be a dumb blind ignorant american like everyone else?

also, woman - give me a few more days, else im just going to be an asshole.
hell, that goes for all of you.

manperiod haha.