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[mekaxxxbuterfly]

there are some things you just cant change.

love

fear

hate

honor

and above all

being who you truely are

this is something i discovered the hard way

Comments

Re: Brittany

[queenofthisnite]

very true. you can't change a person. they will always be the same no matter what. the maturity level might increase, but ur still that person.

The real Joe

[anonymous]

Your right, of course. hehehehehe....so..being a smart one, i suspect you can see the real/true person in us all. What about yourself, though??? Its pretty stunning, the real Joe. I sent you an email, albeit a little dorky, but with my thoughts.

[anonymous]

yeah, your someone who blows off his friends when they want you the most. I'll remember that for the future. How incredibly dependable you are. You didn't have to leave us hanging you know. A phone call would have fixed it. You were just too self centered to care about anyone else's feelings.

[mekaxxxbuterfly]

depending on who this is, i dont think it matters.
if this is andrew, what do i truely owe you? you invited the 2 people i dont want to see and told me to pick when to come. you also ditched me to have a panic attack at pride and didnt care enough to even look.
is this is kristen,the only reason you have talked to me recently was either because you heard i was upset with you, or you wanted to bitch at me.

so either way, i dont really see how you could be upset or call you my friends

[anonymous]

Good to know we don't matter. This is Kristen by the way. Ya know what though? You just proved my point by you statements. You didn't owe us anything other than to be there. Your just not mature enough to deal with your feelings, or you would been there for andrew even though Justin and Mike were there. I know you could have dealt with it. But lets not even go there, because we tried to ask you to come before the party so that you wouldn't have to deal with it. What else were we supposed to do? And then you hung up on us instead of explaining ur actions that day. Real mature. Oh, and about the pride fest thing, andrew looked for you, but couldn't find you, so please don't make andrew look like the bad guy here

Well.......

[anonymous]

Joe,

that was actually Kristen. This is Andrew, and i'm gona say this once.
Its true, you dont believe it, but i dont give a shit, at least this way I know I said it and I know in my heart I mean it, even if u dont.

I love you. I always have and always will. I'm sorry if I let you down and every time you have said that I have, I had literally beaten myself for it, and made myself cry over it.

You have changed my life so much and thats all I have thought about all morning actually. Your mother just called me wondering where you were! As much as Kristen told me not to care where you were, but know what? I do! As much as she thinks I shouldnt, I do.

I'm sorry if you think I abandoned you at anytime, It wasnt my intention at all. I love you and I dont know what I would do without you in my life. Next year is gona be so hard for me because I wont get to see you.

Well there, i've said what I have to say. Now its all up to you.

-AnDrEw-

You're Kind

[anonymous]

Hey, it sounds very much like you've finally crossed over a difficult bridge: the bridge that leads to empowerment. Its obvious that you have alot of fears, and at times have confidence issues. But it also appears, that you've learned alot, and can finally figure out who is good for you, who doesn't have honor, who is worthless and who has been bringing you pain, self-destructive behavior, and makes you unhappy.
Luckily, every day your getting wiser. You truly are a caring, eccentric, emotional, ecletic, kind and decent guy. Its more than most, which is why you deserve people in your life who are willing to give you the most! Your not changing, just growing up right.

Re: You're Kind

[anonymous]

Which Hallmark card did you get that from?

what type of person is joe???

[87shelbyboy]

joe you still are my sun, moon, and stars. i still love you more than anything ever. you are beutifull, smart, sweet, and loving. how could you have thought nothing was going to happen? you woke me up and invited me to an orgie knowing i was drunk off of my ass. we all said that whatever happens tonight doesnt matter cause were drunk. me being drunk is no excuse for what i did and i admit that i fucked up. you did shit that night too. you were also part of that orgie. anyway i still love you and nothing will ever change that. i would do anything to get you back. i would never smoke pot or do drugs ever again if you told me too. if you commanded me so i would send my beloved car to the junkyard and destroy it myself. i still love you that much. i can understand if you dont love me anymore. it still wouldnt change the love that i have for you.

im sorry,
zac.