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[mekan]

i woke up to a brown paper bag
it was a great start to my monday
it confuses me
how it can wait
and sneak up on you
just squeeze the air out of your lungs
and fill your heart til its on the brink of explosion

and most of all
why cant i get rid of it

.....

today
i decided
to make the first step
and go to the freakin doctors again
and maybe
take
what i should be

maybe a little pill
can make me
a little more happy.

but who knows

i want this day to be over
i want to stay in bed
and sleep