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Hmm, so Friday was uneventful. I worked, it was busy. I bought some movies (183 movies now), went to PETsMART and bought some guppies and yellow gourami for the 90 gallon, hung around the house until 9ish, and then I went to Erin's house and watched Hitch with her for awhile. Aaand that was my Friday.
Saturday was a good day, hot as hell and I loved it. I went to my cousin AJ's grad party until about 2:30, then went to Autumn's grad party until 4. I don't really understand what's going on with that. Leading up to her coming to town, she was all "I miss you so much! I love you!" and then like one week before, something clicked off and it's totally different now. She seems to be like totally ditching me, doesn't IM me, I say "love ya" or what not when we do talk and she just says lol or something... I dunno, what a downer there. I mean she called me and she came to my BBQ, and then we went to Erin's grad party. Jessica showed up and she hates Jessica and made me turn around and take her home, she was only at Erin's grad party for like 5 minutes. Erin was really pissed and hurt. She called and came over later that evening and we watched a movie and just kinda cuddled, which was nice. I invited her to my Pistons party, seemed like I was getting some excuses so she could get out of it, but then she came over and I thought everyone had a really good time together, but then that was it for like over a week. I'd try to get together with her, but she'd be busy or have an excuse. At her grad party she makes a comment "Yeah the only time I was invited to any of the pistons parties or to hang out with you guys was when it was at your house!" Well for one, she bailed out the second Jessica showed up with Alayna to Erin's grad party, we're not gonna invite ya to Alayna's piston parties when Jessica shows up on her own without us even knowing she's coming. I dunno, granted I know she has a lot of people to see in a little over two weeks, but it's like 20 days that she's here and it just seems like I haven't gotten to see her much at all. Hell, she hasn't hung out with Erin other than when I had the Pistons party... she could hang out with both of us and kill two birds with one stone. I asked her last night if she was open tonight, and she said yeah, so I asked if she wanted to hang out and she said she didn't know. So, stupid me was all in a hurry to get home after dinner just in case she called.. yeah... 11 oclock and still waiting (*sarcasm*). By 8pm when I saw she had an away message saying she was hanging out with someone, well.. then it was obvious, but it still kinda stung cause I really wanted to hang out with her one more time before she left, and I really doubt that'll happen now. Tomorrow is my only real free night, Wednesday is Mt Clemens cruise (which I've blown the club off twice *just in case she calls* so I'm not doing it this week) and Thursday is the day she leaves (I would assume in the morning or afternoon).
Saturday night I started sanding down my front bumper of the car, totally impromptu, just wanted the car to look good for 4th of July weekend (3 year anniversary of owning the car) for Camaro Superfest. I think it came out pretty damn good. I'll post up pictures at some point, I actually REALLY need to update http://camaro.meissenation.com/ because it's so out dated.
Sunday was spent ALL DAY working on my car, pretty uneventful.
Today was fun, about 2pm the Tower facility lost power due to brown outs, DTE said it wouldn't be back on until 10:30pm so they sent everyone home. Well, side effect of the main building losing power... where all the servers are stored... we were totally sitting ducks in the water at the off-site Photo Studio. Our phones are those voice over IP internet phones, the network was down, email, all the database, and on mac computers half of the programs are on a central server that everyone can access... so they only have like one program to install, but 10 licenses meaning 10 people can use the same program at the same time. Well, with no internet/network.. we were dead. Considering that our entire inventory system is based off of intranet databases, I couldn't figure out what items we really were missing or if I just couldn't find them, so my job was totally crippled. We stuck it out and made it work, but it sucked.
Hmm, so what else has been going on? Well, Monique and I had a full fledged conversation last night. I can't lie, it was nice talking to her again and actually getting along (concept!). Even though I paint her out to be such a bitch or the devil woman, she knows I really do care about her. Hell, whole time Amy was at my house I kept bringing her up... Monique this, Monique that. Bleh. Yeah, so I'm still not over her. She knows, hell everyone knows. It's not like anything would ever come around, she made it pretty clear last time that she wasn't happy in our relationship, I can't really blame her. I suppose my biggest downfall with it being 7 months and still not over her is that I am stuck thinking it's like some dream or some movie, where something will magically happen and she'll come back and we'll live happily ever after. Even as I type it, I know it won't happen... I dunno. I don't know why I hang on, I guess because even with all the fighting it was the best relationship I ever was in. That says a lot. It's funny, I was watching Hitch on Friday night... there was the one part where Will Smith was trying to profess his love for the girl "I want to be miserable like this." Basically saying if I feel this miserable without you, then I know for a fact I want to always be with you. I felt like that part was written directly for me. Just don't understand how I can feel this way about someone, but yet it be like this... Aight well now I'm getting down so changing subjects...
With 60 days left in the company, my parents decided to take advantage of vacation before mom starts a new job and won't have as much vacation time. They're going to Kentucky to visit their old friends that went and retired there, I'd like to go too but they said "adults only" and hey that means party for me. 4 days home alone, I'll take it... just would be better if I had a girlfriend to live it up with. Guess it's going to be pretty soon, too, so I'm screwed on finding a girl that quick. Either the 2nd or 3rd weekend in July. Then, they also want to take a 5 day vacation to Quincy to visit Grandma Meissen and the rest of the Meissen gang. It's been years since I've seen them, so it'll be nice to see the Quincy gang again... I just hope Grandma Meissen even recognizes me this time, she didn't know who I was the whole time we were there last time.
So I went to PETsMART last Friday, I forgot. Apparently, Tim was telling people that I'm an alcoholic, really into boozing. It's funny, considering I haven't had more than a few sips of alcohol this entire year... and when I say sips, I really mean sips. That'll end Thursday, we're having a keg party at work. I'm looking forward to that, maybe I'll hook up with a girl after all (*sarcasm*). The cute one with a Camaro HAS to have a boyfriend, it just wouldn't be right if she didn't.
one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go
i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i'm going through
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go
no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand,
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
just let me go
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know who i am
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know me...
Saturday was a good day, hot as hell and I loved it. I went to my cousin AJ's grad party until about 2:30, then went to Autumn's grad party until 4. I don't really understand what's going on with that. Leading up to her coming to town, she was all "I miss you so much! I love you!" and then like one week before, something clicked off and it's totally different now. She seems to be like totally ditching me, doesn't IM me, I say "love ya" or what not when we do talk and she just says lol or something... I dunno, what a downer there. I mean she called me and she came to my BBQ, and then we went to Erin's grad party. Jessica showed up and she hates Jessica and made me turn around and take her home, she was only at Erin's grad party for like 5 minutes. Erin was really pissed and hurt. She called and came over later that evening and we watched a movie and just kinda cuddled, which was nice. I invited her to my Pistons party, seemed like I was getting some excuses so she could get out of it, but then she came over and I thought everyone had a really good time together, but then that was it for like over a week. I'd try to get together with her, but she'd be busy or have an excuse. At her grad party she makes a comment "Yeah the only time I was invited to any of the pistons parties or to hang out with you guys was when it was at your house!" Well for one, she bailed out the second Jessica showed up with Alayna to Erin's grad party, we're not gonna invite ya to Alayna's piston parties when Jessica shows up on her own without us even knowing she's coming. I dunno, granted I know she has a lot of people to see in a little over two weeks, but it's like 20 days that she's here and it just seems like I haven't gotten to see her much at all. Hell, she hasn't hung out with Erin other than when I had the Pistons party... she could hang out with both of us and kill two birds with one stone. I asked her last night if she was open tonight, and she said yeah, so I asked if she wanted to hang out and she said she didn't know. So, stupid me was all in a hurry to get home after dinner just in case she called.. yeah... 11 oclock and still waiting (*sarcasm*). By 8pm when I saw she had an away message saying she was hanging out with someone, well.. then it was obvious, but it still kinda stung cause I really wanted to hang out with her one more time before she left, and I really doubt that'll happen now. Tomorrow is my only real free night, Wednesday is Mt Clemens cruise (which I've blown the club off twice *just in case she calls* so I'm not doing it this week) and Thursday is the day she leaves (I would assume in the morning or afternoon).
Saturday night I started sanding down my front bumper of the car, totally impromptu, just wanted the car to look good for 4th of July weekend (3 year anniversary of owning the car) for Camaro Superfest. I think it came out pretty damn good. I'll post up pictures at some point, I actually REALLY need to update http://camaro.meissenation.com/ because it's so out dated.
Sunday was spent ALL DAY working on my car, pretty uneventful.
Today was fun, about 2pm the Tower facility lost power due to brown outs, DTE said it wouldn't be back on until 10:30pm so they sent everyone home. Well, side effect of the main building losing power... where all the servers are stored... we were totally sitting ducks in the water at the off-site Photo Studio. Our phones are those voice over IP internet phones, the network was down, email, all the database, and on mac computers half of the programs are on a central server that everyone can access... so they only have like one program to install, but 10 licenses meaning 10 people can use the same program at the same time. Well, with no internet/network.. we were dead. Considering that our entire inventory system is based off of intranet databases, I couldn't figure out what items we really were missing or if I just couldn't find them, so my job was totally crippled. We stuck it out and made it work, but it sucked.
Hmm, so what else has been going on? Well, Monique and I had a full fledged conversation last night. I can't lie, it was nice talking to her again and actually getting along (concept!). Even though I paint her out to be such a bitch or the devil woman, she knows I really do care about her. Hell, whole time Amy was at my house I kept bringing her up... Monique this, Monique that. Bleh. Yeah, so I'm still not over her. She knows, hell everyone knows. It's not like anything would ever come around, she made it pretty clear last time that she wasn't happy in our relationship, I can't really blame her. I suppose my biggest downfall with it being 7 months and still not over her is that I am stuck thinking it's like some dream or some movie, where something will magically happen and she'll come back and we'll live happily ever after. Even as I type it, I know it won't happen... I dunno. I don't know why I hang on, I guess because even with all the fighting it was the best relationship I ever was in. That says a lot. It's funny, I was watching Hitch on Friday night... there was the one part where Will Smith was trying to profess his love for the girl "I want to be miserable like this." Basically saying if I feel this miserable without you, then I know for a fact I want to always be with you. I felt like that part was written directly for me. Just don't understand how I can feel this way about someone, but yet it be like this... Aight well now I'm getting down so changing subjects...
With 60 days left in the company, my parents decided to take advantage of vacation before mom starts a new job and won't have as much vacation time. They're going to Kentucky to visit their old friends that went and retired there, I'd like to go too but they said "adults only" and hey that means party for me. 4 days home alone, I'll take it... just would be better if I had a girlfriend to live it up with. Guess it's going to be pretty soon, too, so I'm screwed on finding a girl that quick. Either the 2nd or 3rd weekend in July. Then, they also want to take a 5 day vacation to Quincy to visit Grandma Meissen and the rest of the Meissen gang. It's been years since I've seen them, so it'll be nice to see the Quincy gang again... I just hope Grandma Meissen even recognizes me this time, she didn't know who I was the whole time we were there last time.
So I went to PETsMART last Friday, I forgot. Apparently, Tim was telling people that I'm an alcoholic, really into boozing. It's funny, considering I haven't had more than a few sips of alcohol this entire year... and when I say sips, I really mean sips. That'll end Thursday, we're having a keg party at work. I'm looking forward to that, maybe I'll hook up with a girl after all (*sarcasm*). The cute one with a Camaro HAS to have a boyfriend, it just wouldn't be right if she didn't.
one more kiss could be the best thing
one more lie could be the worst
and all these thoughts are never resting
and you're not something i deserve
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
let me go
i dream we head to what i hope for
and i turn my back on loving you
how could this love be a good thing
when i know what i'm going through
in my head there's only you now
this world falls on me
in this world, there's real and make believe
this seems real to me
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand
you love me, but you dont know who i am
so let me go, just let me go
no matter how hard i try
i cant escape these things inside
i know, i know
but all the pieces fall apart
you will be the only one who knows
who knows
you love me, but you dont know who i am
i'm torn between this life i lead
and where i stand,
you love me, but you don't know who i am
so let me go
just let me go
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know who i am
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont
you love me, but you dont know me...