Restless Mind
I'm having trouble settling into any tasks I've set myself since Tuesday. It's bad, I can't even brainstorm for my 2005 and 2006 NaNos. My mind wanders, and I can't concentrate on much. I am tired of looking for a job, and tired of not having gotten one yet; I am tired of feeling like I'm the only one in the house doing chores; I'm tired of my disorganization; I'm mostly tired of myself.
Don't get me wrong - I like myself, would probably even be friends with me if I wasn't me...but, I'd like a break away from me. Or maybe a break from my immediate situation; maybe just some time in a new headspace. I don't know. There isn't much I've felt excited about in a long time and lately the things that get me the closest to excited involve crossing tasks off of a list of chores. No, wait. I've actually gotten pretty excited about finding some new places to try sending some of my writing to - if I ever can settle my mind long enough to work on a piece or two.
I think I need an adventure, but I've done most of the free/cheap things in this city, thereby losing their adventurey feeling. I've tried to write adventures I'd like to have but they fall flat and feel stale.
It's probably the "winter blues" but I don't like it. *sigh* Maybe it's time to get a vitamin d supplement, and maybe a multivitamin again.
Oh well...it's good to know that even in the midst of this blahness that I can still be silly and have fun with thesrannon on MSN. :D
Anyways, enough babbling and crap! I have 5 mins to shower and dress for my parents visit!
Don't get me wrong - I like myself, would probably even be friends with me if I wasn't me...but, I'd like a break away from me. Or maybe a break from my immediate situation; maybe just some time in a new headspace. I don't know. There isn't much I've felt excited about in a long time and lately the things that get me the closest to excited involve crossing tasks off of a list of chores. No, wait. I've actually gotten pretty excited about finding some new places to try sending some of my writing to - if I ever can settle my mind long enough to work on a piece or two.
I think I need an adventure, but I've done most of the free/cheap things in this city, thereby losing their adventurey feeling. I've tried to write adventures I'd like to have but they fall flat and feel stale.
It's probably the "winter blues" but I don't like it. *sigh* Maybe it's time to get a vitamin d supplement, and maybe a multivitamin again.
Oh well...it's good to know that even in the midst of this blahness that I can still be silly and have fun with thesrannon on MSN. :D
Anyways, enough babbling and crap! I have 5 mins to shower and dress for my parents visit!