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I am completely consumed by hatred. I never thought I could feel like this and I hope this feeling does not last. I pray that God calms my soul because only He can. Tell me, how can I start eating again when there are people who make me sick to my stomach? Every time I think about it I'm repulsed and my blood boils in my veins.
Here's something funny and worth mentioning. While my blood is boiling for reasons I will no mention, there is this other person [who claims to not care about me, hah, who are you fooling sweetie?] who appears to be consumed by hatred as well... only this individual's animosity is directed towards me. Though flattered by the attention, what I find to be so hilarious is the way in which this person persists on claiming I am "fake." So I decided to give this person the benefit of the doubt and I took the accusation into consideration... and what baffles me is this: if I were truly fake, wouldn't I try to portray myself as likeable? Quite honestly I'm far from a likeable, agreeable, nice person. I often come off as blunt, bitchy, and opinionated. So on what grounds am I fake? Although the term carries negative connotations, I often wish I were better at being fake, since I often have inappropriate reactions at inappropriate times [such as laughing in times of high tension or giving my 2 cents where 2 cents are not needed]. So honestly, though I appreciate the time and effort it takes for you to stay up to date reading my Live Journal and commenting, I would really love it if you would be a doll and do me the favor of finding valid accusations to throw at me. Thanks! :)
Here's something funny and worth mentioning. While my blood is boiling for reasons I will no mention, there is this other person [who claims to not care about me, hah, who are you fooling sweetie?] who appears to be consumed by hatred as well... only this individual's animosity is directed towards me. Though flattered by the attention, what I find to be so hilarious is the way in which this person persists on claiming I am "fake." So I decided to give this person the benefit of the doubt and I took the accusation into consideration... and what baffles me is this: if I were truly fake, wouldn't I try to portray myself as likeable? Quite honestly I'm far from a likeable, agreeable, nice person. I often come off as blunt, bitchy, and opinionated. So on what grounds am I fake? Although the term carries negative connotations, I often wish I were better at being fake, since I often have inappropriate reactions at inappropriate times [such as laughing in times of high tension or giving my 2 cents where 2 cents are not needed]. So honestly, though I appreciate the time and effort it takes for you to stay up to date reading my Live Journal and commenting, I would really love it if you would be a doll and do me the favor of finding valid accusations to throw at me. Thanks! :)