Things You Probably Shouldn't Know About Me.
Stolen from a friend on DA. Also posted there.
TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
1.) I know you told me that I could come to you for anything, but I just don't know if you'd understand half of the things that make my life hell. Not a lot of people would, so I don't blame you for that. I'm just afraid of what you'll think of me if I tell you. You're a good friend and I don't want to lose you.
2.) Everything about you annoys the living hell out of me, but I love you so so so much. It doesn't even make sense, but I guess love never does.
3.) Have a nice life without me, asshole. I hate you so much. But I love you like I will never love anyone else ever again. I hope you die. I hope you love me again. I'm so glad you don't talk to me so I don't have to think about you anymore. I hate you. I love you.
4.) If you even knew how much I wanted you, you'd call me a freak. Everyone would think so. My feelings for you are so, so wrong, but I've had them since we were little. I remember asking you to marry me when we were little, and you said yes. You probably don't remember, but I do. And it still hurts to know you didn't mean it.
5.) You make me feel so confused. I'm not sure if I love you or not. I know I sound like a liar, saying that I love all these people, but I never believed in having one true love. Is it you? Is it someone else? Or am I meant to love more than one? Out of all the people I know, you'd probably be able to tell me. But I don't want to admit that I think I might love you.
6.) You have no idea how much I want to fuck you, just to take your virginity. I don't even care about you, I just want to say that I was your first. It doesn't make any sense, but I want it. Just to be able to brag about it later.
7.) I don't like you that way, so stop getting into my personal space, douche. You're my friend, okay, I know that. But friends don't get that close. It's like you're trying to crawl into my skin, and it weirds me out. Some days I like it though, but only because I feel lonely without my girlfriend here. Just stop, though, okay?
8.) You're probably the only one who would understand what I really mean when I say that the waffle sitting on the plate in front of me just isn't all that appealing anymore. And I love you for that.
9.) Stop trying to make me feel guilty about something I never even did to you, fuckwad. I hope you die in a fire and burn in hell forever, you sick piece of shit. I never want to see your ugly ass face, or your ugly ass car ever again. I just wanna claw out your eyeballs and feed them to my cat, that's how much I hate you. I want to rip you into tiny little pieces and toss them in a bonfire. I've only felt this kind of hatred with two other people in my life, and they both tried to kill me and/or my mother. You didn't do either of those things, but it's close enough for me. You fucking scare me, even though I could snap you in half with one finger. If you try to cross me ever again, you better watch the fuck out, 'cause that's exactly what I will do. You don't deserve to live.
10.) Will you ever take a fucking hint? I don't want to talk to you, so stop calling me.
NINE things about yourself:
1.) I have reoccurring bouts of what could be considered depression, but I know it's not.
2.) I may not show my feelings very much, but I do have them.
3.) I really don't know what to do with this waffle. I don't want to eat it anymore.
4.) I wish I could be with someone who understands my problems completely.
5.) I'm kind of a control freak.
6.) People think they know me, but there are so many things I will never tell them.
7.) I have better things I should be doing right now.
8.) I want a fucking cigarette so bad. Maybe I'll go buy a pack after I get a shower.
9.) My brain is so fucked up, even I don't understand it most of the time.
EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1.) Understand me and my endless problems.
2.) Have a good, broad taste in music.
3.) Don't be too clingy, but be prepared for cuddles when I want them.
4.) Have a good (preferably dirty) sense of humor.
5.) Be open minded.
6.) Weird and geeky is never bad.
7.) Cuteness goes a long way.
8.) Be willing to spend long periods of time with me silently, because I'm not a big talker all the time.
SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1.) Sex.
2.) Story ideas.
3.) God, I wish I could be famous.
4.) Food.
5.) Why can't I be amazingly awesome at writing lyrics/singing/playing an instrument like (insert famous person)?
6.) My mom.
7.) Sex.
SIX things you do before you fall asleep:
1.) Make sure all the lights are off in the apartment except for my lamp.
2.) Turn on my 5 disc CD changer and put it on repeat.
3.) Get in bed.
4.) Take off my glasses.
5.) Turn off my lamp.
6.) Kiss my bb!Ryan goodnight.
FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment:
1.) My mom.
2.) My dad.
3.) i_love_jersey Margaret, my girlfriend.
4.) faith_omgwtfbbq.
5.) All my friends/fans on LJ.
FOUR things you see right now:
1.) Uneaten waffle.
2.) Computer.
3.) Pencil.
4.) MP3 player.
THREE songs that you listen to often at the moment:
1.) Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5 (right now)
2.) Poker Face - Lady GaGa
3.) Rosetta Stoned - Tool
TWO things you want to do before you die:
1.) Meet the guys from P!ATD/TYV and see them live in concert.
2.) Finally be able to be my true self, not just online, but in real life as well.
ONE confession:
1.) Rarely do I actually lie, I just don't ever tell the whole truth.
TEN things you wish you could say to TEN different people right now:
1.) I know you told me that I could come to you for anything, but I just don't know if you'd understand half of the things that make my life hell. Not a lot of people would, so I don't blame you for that. I'm just afraid of what you'll think of me if I tell you. You're a good friend and I don't want to lose you.
2.) Everything about you annoys the living hell out of me, but I love you so so so much. It doesn't even make sense, but I guess love never does.
3.) Have a nice life without me, asshole. I hate you so much. But I love you like I will never love anyone else ever again. I hope you die. I hope you love me again. I'm so glad you don't talk to me so I don't have to think about you anymore. I hate you. I love you.
4.) If you even knew how much I wanted you, you'd call me a freak. Everyone would think so. My feelings for you are so, so wrong, but I've had them since we were little. I remember asking you to marry me when we were little, and you said yes. You probably don't remember, but I do. And it still hurts to know you didn't mean it.
5.) You make me feel so confused. I'm not sure if I love you or not. I know I sound like a liar, saying that I love all these people, but I never believed in having one true love. Is it you? Is it someone else? Or am I meant to love more than one? Out of all the people I know, you'd probably be able to tell me. But I don't want to admit that I think I might love you.
6.) You have no idea how much I want to fuck you, just to take your virginity. I don't even care about you, I just want to say that I was your first. It doesn't make any sense, but I want it. Just to be able to brag about it later.
7.) I don't like you that way, so stop getting into my personal space, douche. You're my friend, okay, I know that. But friends don't get that close. It's like you're trying to crawl into my skin, and it weirds me out. Some days I like it though, but only because I feel lonely without my girlfriend here. Just stop, though, okay?
8.) You're probably the only one who would understand what I really mean when I say that the waffle sitting on the plate in front of me just isn't all that appealing anymore. And I love you for that.
9.) Stop trying to make me feel guilty about something I never even did to you, fuckwad. I hope you die in a fire and burn in hell forever, you sick piece of shit. I never want to see your ugly ass face, or your ugly ass car ever again. I just wanna claw out your eyeballs and feed them to my cat, that's how much I hate you. I want to rip you into tiny little pieces and toss them in a bonfire. I've only felt this kind of hatred with two other people in my life, and they both tried to kill me and/or my mother. You didn't do either of those things, but it's close enough for me. You fucking scare me, even though I could snap you in half with one finger. If you try to cross me ever again, you better watch the fuck out, 'cause that's exactly what I will do. You don't deserve to live.
10.) Will you ever take a fucking hint? I don't want to talk to you, so stop calling me.
NINE things about yourself:
1.) I have reoccurring bouts of what could be considered depression, but I know it's not.
2.) I may not show my feelings very much, but I do have them.
3.) I really don't know what to do with this waffle. I don't want to eat it anymore.
4.) I wish I could be with someone who understands my problems completely.
5.) I'm kind of a control freak.
6.) People think they know me, but there are so many things I will never tell them.
7.) I have better things I should be doing right now.
8.) I want a fucking cigarette so bad. Maybe I'll go buy a pack after I get a shower.
9.) My brain is so fucked up, even I don't understand it most of the time.
EIGHT ways to win your heart:
1.) Understand me and my endless problems.
2.) Have a good, broad taste in music.
3.) Don't be too clingy, but be prepared for cuddles when I want them.
4.) Have a good (preferably dirty) sense of humor.
5.) Be open minded.
6.) Weird and geeky is never bad.
7.) Cuteness goes a long way.
8.) Be willing to spend long periods of time with me silently, because I'm not a big talker all the time.
SEVEN things that cross your mind a lot:
1.) Sex.
2.) Story ideas.
3.) God, I wish I could be famous.
4.) Food.
5.) Why can't I be amazingly awesome at writing lyrics/singing/playing an instrument like (insert famous person)?
6.) My mom.
7.) Sex.
SIX things you do before you fall asleep:
1.) Make sure all the lights are off in the apartment except for my lamp.
2.) Turn on my 5 disc CD changer and put it on repeat.
3.) Get in bed.
4.) Take off my glasses.
5.) Turn off my lamp.
6.) Kiss my bb!Ryan goodnight.
FIVE people who mean a lot at the moment:
1.) My mom.
2.) My dad.
3.) i_love_jersey Margaret, my girlfriend.
4.) faith_omgwtfbbq.
5.) All my friends/fans on LJ.
FOUR things you see right now:
1.) Uneaten waffle.
2.) Computer.
3.) Pencil.
4.) MP3 player.
THREE songs that you listen to often at the moment:
1.) Makes Me Wonder - Maroon 5 (right now)
2.) Poker Face - Lady GaGa
3.) Rosetta Stoned - Tool
TWO things you want to do before you die:
1.) Meet the guys from P!ATD/TYV and see them live in concert.
2.) Finally be able to be my true self, not just online, but in real life as well.
ONE confession:
1.) Rarely do I actually lie, I just don't ever tell the whole truth.