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[meilee]

SO... I know I'm totally stupid sometimes, but I swear I never know if a guy is flirting with me or just talking. Tonight we had a mixer and I was talking to EVERYONE trying to get our girls to talk with all the guys and I would pick on certain guys because I never saw them talking to girls. So one of them started to pick on me and call me "antisocial" so we talked and blah blah and then as I was leaving to go to another party he asked where I was heading and I told him. Lo and behold 30 minutes later he shows up to the party and keeps saying really nice things to me (which I know were total bullshit) and then as I was leaving to eat (I hate eating fatty food late at night... blah) he was like well you're the reason I came... so I'm leaving with you. So yes we ate and then I left and he ended up coming to my apartment with my friend who wanted to sleep on my couch! AHHH! Then she left me alone with him... REALLY awkward. I'm glad I didnt drink a lot tonight (so I wasnt even buzzing) or else God knows what stupid decisions I would have made. I'm usually good about this kind of thing when I'm sober and thinking straight, but I've definately made my few "mistakes" when I had been drinking. Its so weird though when they're at your place because you dont want to be rude (I feel like I led him on... or else why would he come right?), but you want them to leave. Its also because you know what they're thinking and its like how can I go about changing the subject and play dumb. Lol... I'm retarded I know. i dont know how I get myself into these messes. But he's gone so yay for me.
*Sigh* Now he's IMing me... this'll be interesting.

*Thanks for the diversion advice earlier! I think the obvious was what I needed to hear - sorry I woke you up*