the definitions and semantics of a "fangirl"
Okay, so I admit I'm a huge KangTeuk fan. Everyone knows this, right? My bias is all over the place.
But...aren't I allowed to be a KT fan and still be sane? Is that asking too much? Can't I love their dependency and friendship and (brotherly, platonic, whatever) love without losing my touch with reality? I mean, I'd like to think I'm fairly sane when it comes to RPS pairings: I like to read about them being in love and having rough sex up against a wall (yum) and even seeing the fanservice or "evidence" irl of their closness, but I realize there's a difference between fantasy and reality.
In reality, I would love for both Teukie and Kangin to find girls they adore and want to marry. I think it would be the cutest thing in the world, because they deserve that kind of happiness, and the het romance would be so awkward and sweet. I would totally love to see them stand up at each other's weddings.
But thoughts like that apparently make me not a "true" KangTeuk fan to some people. Does this girl frighten anyone else? [edit: she deleted her post, but mostly it linked to her own journal, except the comm post had a lot more people asking her if she were insane than her journal comments.] She can't seem to separate her wish fulfillment from reality and it frankly worries me a little. I admit to having my emotions played with in regards to KT (them not talking or seeming distant or appearing as if everything between them is just fanservice makes me upset; them playing around and joking and being touchy makes me happier than it should, probably), but fans who have gone that far--
I worry what's going on in their psyches or their real lives that they need to cling to this type of illusion (self-delusion). This girl is so...defensive about it too.
My first reaction to the video she posted (rumors about Kangin and a potential girlfriend with matching rings on their ring finger) was "alkfj omg cuuuute, he really will be first to marry and he will be such a good husband and daddy and oh! maybe all of the other members already knew and this was why they all said he'd be the first to marry alkdjfld awwwwww ♥". BUT MAYBE I'M DOING IT WRONG. ::facedesk::
On a different note, but still re: crazy fans, I just want to put it out there that I don't support batshit insane fans, whether they are ELF or Flawless or what-the-fuck-ever. I tend to associate non-rabid fans as non-Only 13 fans, which is more or less true that I've seen, but I've realized that over-generalizing is a bad idea. There are sane Only 13 fans that I can respectfully disagree with and there are some crazyass, judgmental, bitchy, holier-than-thou Flawless/pro-SJM fans that get on my nerves.
Why do we have to have these kinds of divisions anyway? I draw a line between "crazy" and "sane" and that is not the same line between "Only 13" and "pro-SJM".
Actually, the very concept of Flawless kind of pisses me off. We're not here to get cliquey and elitist, so let's stop encouraging that "either/or" mindset, okay?
I will, however, confess to an unrelenting hatred of ELF, but that's just because of the shitty image they've presented of themselves. I'm sure there are sane fangirls in the official fanclub...somewhere...
All right, enough about crazy fangirls. I pre-ordered the Taiwan edition of Sujuman's Me (迷)! I am excited. :D