Musing
Don't stop stop your dreamin'
Let yourself float upon the notion
We can work it out, we gon' work it out baby
Go ahead lose yourself inside this opportunity
That we gonna make it right, now
make it right now
These are different times but we feel the same pains
The blood of mankind runnin' through the same veins
We'd like to make it right some which it remain tame
Same crimes even though they names changed
And we like different minds workin' off the same brain
Passengers on different cars steppin' off the same train
In the end, makin' it rights the main aim
Different parts of the picture highlight the same frame
That song, and that particular part of it, have really been sticking in my mind of late. I've just felt rather reflective lately, trying (with some help from loved ones) to not only take myself down a peg or two ego-wise, but to figure out why I can be such a mean-spirited dickhead. I snap at the people close to me, get angry for stupid things that are either out of my control (traffic, customers) or just... don't deserve the energy and negativity of anger. I don't really remember being this way in the past... perhaps people just haven't pointed it out until recently; maybe it's a more recent development.
At least part of it is because I'm a coward, or at least have been. I haven't been honest with myself about how scared I've been at the twists and turns life has taken, how utterly terrified I've been (off and on) over the last year or two. I don't really know what I'm doing, what I want to do, or half the time what I should be doing --so I bitch about stagnation and do nothing to keep the waters flowing; I'm scared of change. That being said... I know there's at least that to start moving past.
Also, dorky as it may sound, I think Brian Jacques and his Redwall series has a few keys to move me beyond being the negative, mean, shut-down person I've been lately. I know most of you (probably none of you?) will get it, but the books have been with me since I started reading them in elementary school. I know, I know... they're "children's" books, but they have good lessons, promote good values. Compassion, forgiveness, love and goodwill are heavy elements, along with selfless courage and the bravery to do anything for those you care about. Good should be its own reward, right?
So lately, whenever I've felt a little angry, I've tried to look at why I was ready to snap; and usually I've called myself an idiot for it. I've been asking myself "What would Martin do?" If you haven't read the books... well you just won't know.
Let yourself float upon the notion
We can work it out, we gon' work it out baby
Go ahead lose yourself inside this opportunity
That we gonna make it right, now
make it right now
These are different times but we feel the same pains
The blood of mankind runnin' through the same veins
We'd like to make it right some which it remain tame
Same crimes even though they names changed
And we like different minds workin' off the same brain
Passengers on different cars steppin' off the same train
In the end, makin' it rights the main aim
Different parts of the picture highlight the same frame
Click to viewThat song, and that particular part of it, have really been sticking in my mind of late. I've just felt rather reflective lately, trying (with some help from loved ones) to not only take myself down a peg or two ego-wise, but to figure out why I can be such a mean-spirited dickhead. I snap at the people close to me, get angry for stupid things that are either out of my control (traffic, customers) or just... don't deserve the energy and negativity of anger. I don't really remember being this way in the past... perhaps people just haven't pointed it out until recently; maybe it's a more recent development.
At least part of it is because I'm a coward, or at least have been. I haven't been honest with myself about how scared I've been at the twists and turns life has taken, how utterly terrified I've been (off and on) over the last year or two. I don't really know what I'm doing, what I want to do, or half the time what I should be doing --so I bitch about stagnation and do nothing to keep the waters flowing; I'm scared of change. That being said... I know there's at least that to start moving past.
Also, dorky as it may sound, I think Brian Jacques and his Redwall series has a few keys to move me beyond being the negative, mean, shut-down person I've been lately. I know most of you (probably none of you?) will get it, but the books have been with me since I started reading them in elementary school. I know, I know... they're "children's" books, but they have good lessons, promote good values. Compassion, forgiveness, love and goodwill are heavy elements, along with selfless courage and the bravery to do anything for those you care about. Good should be its own reward, right?
So lately, whenever I've felt a little angry, I've tried to look at why I was ready to snap; and usually I've called myself an idiot for it. I've been asking myself "What would Martin do?" If you haven't read the books... well you just won't know.