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I'm leaving for school in 2 days, Monday morning. Very early Monday morning. I have SO much to do until then, but the things I have to do are somehow going to have to fit around the things I want to do. I'm going to a wedding tomorrow with Matt, granted the ceremonies are usually short and there are a few hours between that and the reception, I won't be able to accomplish much in that time, then the recption is an all night commitment. I don't want to skip it because I've been looking forward to going and I don't want to stand up a friend like that. Then Sunday my Aunt wants to take Tricia and I to the movies, I want to see my little neighbors before I leave, family dinner, lawn chair film fest and somewhere in there I should really attempt to pack.
I feel bad because I've neglected a lot of friends this summer and I've spent a lot of time alone. I broke a lot of promises of hanging out and such but please understand that it was me, not you. My alone time has been somewhat theraputic for me though and even though I'm suffereing through a great amount of depression, I feel better than I did before. Now that I'm healthier, both physically and mentally, I actually feel up to doing more things. I'll be around and I would love to see people on the weekends and stuff, so if you want give me a call or something.
I'm actually going to make a point to stay at school this year! Especailly on the weekends. I missed out on so much at State and had a bad experience, I never really got to know anyone because of my need to be at home. That's not going to happen this time around. Secretly, I think I'm excited. Though I haven't yet admitted that out loud. It's going to be okay. I'm pretty sure I have myself convinced of that...
I feel bad because I've neglected a lot of friends this summer and I've spent a lot of time alone. I broke a lot of promises of hanging out and such but please understand that it was me, not you. My alone time has been somewhat theraputic for me though and even though I'm suffereing through a great amount of depression, I feel better than I did before. Now that I'm healthier, both physically and mentally, I actually feel up to doing more things. I'll be around and I would love to see people on the weekends and stuff, so if you want give me a call or something.
I'm actually going to make a point to stay at school this year! Especailly on the weekends. I missed out on so much at State and had a bad experience, I never really got to know anyone because of my need to be at home. That's not going to happen this time around. Secretly, I think I'm excited. Though I haven't yet admitted that out loud. It's going to be okay. I'm pretty sure I have myself convinced of that...