Reflecting on things. I dunno lol
I'm sitting here, slightly bored. I decided i wanted to post an entry, so that is what i am going to do lol. Well i can say ONE good thing about this vacation, 1 and only 1 positive thing came out of it. I started my long journey to healthy living. Recently i found out bad news, after gaining back 40 pounds i had lost. I then realized how badly i let myself go and slip back into the whole i was in before. If i don't change it i will get diabetes. So i've been trying to change my way of living. I am going to try to plan out a way to eat healthier, and i've begun going to the gym to get exersize, as that has always been my biggest issue. I started this vacation and i went 4 times this week, so i'm feeling good about that. But on the contrary, i am also bummed about life a bit as well. I hate facing the fact that people are always going to change and that i can't stop it. It seems the whole world around me has changed. My friends moving away, starting new lives that don't involve me. Their personalities and interests completely changing all together. But i on the other hand, have not changed much. Maybe slightly. but barely. and it saddens me to see my beloved best friends changing. I just am feeling a little sad lately about all this because it makes me really wish things were the way they used to be. I feel more alone now. now that 2 of my best friends have moved away. I know change is an inevitable part of life. But i just really don't like having to deal with it you know? I was happy with the friends i had, why'd it have to change? Why did they have to move and become completely different people? I just don't like the feeling at all, like i've lost all that used to be my life. and i don't really know where i am in life at the moment anymore. Oh well....nothing i can really do about it right. Just reflecting, as i sit in my boredom lol.