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i have emotions too. i cry just as much, maybe more. i am angered easily. i laugh and smile. but i can't put on a happy face when im not. im not perfect. i can't make peoples problems go away, i can't even fix my own. what more do you want of me? i can't do it. when nobody believes in me, when i have no one to turn to, what do i do? you tell me.
thats it. i give up. i surrender. game over. the end.
this week i have been an emotional wrek. i cry constantly over everything. i dont even know what to do anymore. im sick of everything. im sick of trying to put on a smile and trying to make other people happy when i'm not. im sick of not feeling trusted when i have never done anything to not make my parents not trust me. im sick of not believing in myself. im sick of feeling like nobody is there to believe in me. im sick of feeling sorry for myself. im sick of this. i want everything to disapper. i want to be happy, crazy, me again. i want to love like i will never love again. i want someone to love me just as much as i will love them. i want to have my parents trust me. i want to know that no matter what happens i will have a few ,close, great friends by my side through thick and thin. i want problems to go away and for everyone to be happy. i want the gossip and drama to never be created again. i want peace.
i want a lot. and i dont know how much im going to get?