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I haven't written in a long time except to talk about seeing Peter.
I've been student teaching with Beth at GMS. I love it. I know that instrumental music is what I want to do with my life, but I'm not sure what level I want to teach - middle school or high school. I never thought I'd see myself teaching middle school, but the kids are great.
I've been thinking a lot lately about some things that are going on in my life. It seems like a big deal to me, but I know that so many other people have problems that are far worse.
For the past couple days I've felt sick all of the time. This is what Karl must have been going through back then. I am not sick for the same reasons, but I can hardly eat and I can only sleep because I'm exhausted from work.
I believe things happen for a reason. I know, from philosophy class and determinism, that I have no choice here, everything is pre-determined. I still feel worried not knowing what choice it will be or when. I'm lucky to have such friends to cheer me up. I really appreciate that.
Meanwhile...at home....I'm sick of being here. I'm very lucky to have a family that is still around and that loves me, but I can't stand the craziness. Apply for jobs, why are you applying for jobs you need to do the dishes. Did you get a job yet? You want to work there? Well, maybe you can work here too so you can make more money. GRR. This is the last time in my life where I don't NEED to have a job. Can I please have that now that I know how to appreciate it?
I've been student teaching with Beth at GMS. I love it. I know that instrumental music is what I want to do with my life, but I'm not sure what level I want to teach - middle school or high school. I never thought I'd see myself teaching middle school, but the kids are great.
I've been thinking a lot lately about some things that are going on in my life. It seems like a big deal to me, but I know that so many other people have problems that are far worse.
For the past couple days I've felt sick all of the time. This is what Karl must have been going through back then. I am not sick for the same reasons, but I can hardly eat and I can only sleep because I'm exhausted from work.
I believe things happen for a reason. I know, from philosophy class and determinism, that I have no choice here, everything is pre-determined. I still feel worried not knowing what choice it will be or when. I'm lucky to have such friends to cheer me up. I really appreciate that.
Meanwhile...at home....I'm sick of being here. I'm very lucky to have a family that is still around and that loves me, but I can't stand the craziness. Apply for jobs, why are you applying for jobs you need to do the dishes. Did you get a job yet? You want to work there? Well, maybe you can work here too so you can make more money. GRR. This is the last time in my life where I don't NEED to have a job. Can I please have that now that I know how to appreciate it?