Change is Coming
Today was jam packed with activities: a despedida/frisbee pickup, checkup, ocular and a mini fashion show of sorts. Yes I'm dead tired but there was one message that kept on playing in my head the whole day through all of the day's goings on. Things change, people change.
Rhodes is leaving Manila for further studies. Honestly, I've never really gotten to know Rhodes until recently. But during the past few times that we did happen to meet up a d12, I've gotten to know her as such a smart person, so practical but still grounded in God's word. Exactly the kind of people I love surrounding myself with. She decided to resign from her job here, which she's great at, to pursue something she really wants to do - which is to teach. From a fairly stable job, she's heading to Bacolod, leaving her boyfriend, the comfort of her friends and things she's used to, to follow her dreams. She's a very brave woman you see, she stares at change and is not afraid of it.
To send Rhodes off properly, we decided to play frisbee, one of her favorite activities. I would typically say no. Because I'm so bad a team sports and I have little to zero hand eye coordination. Or that's what I thought . After today's game, I realized that I can actually play and don't give myself enough credit. I don't know when I got better or how I even did it. But I was pleasantly surprised with today's revelation. It made me remember the time we went shooting last November and one of the members in the gun club was surprised of how well I shot. We change. We get better.
And then there was a lot of talk about love and love lost. One of my other friends was sharing how she and this guy were practically dating. All the tell tale signs were there but even after a year somehow he never committed. We talked about how they would go out and how he'd show up at their office bearing food and gifts. How he would say the right things and do the right things. Then all of a sudden, just like a switch, he was so cold and distant. People change. They change their minds too.
Meanwhile, Mom was taking her daily blood sugar tests when the machine read "ketones". That had never happened and because it was blinking, that kind of alarmed her. Luckily, Raphie had a sleepover with her highschool friends and there happened to be 2 doctors. Mom asked them what blinking "ketones" meant and they urged her to go to the emergency room immediately. (Side note: dad passed away a couple of years ago primary cause was a heart attack, secondary cause was diabetic ketoacidosis)The emergency room said they couldn't help her and that she needed a diabetologist. Nina found one and managed to set an appointment that very same day. They headed to Makati Med and the doctor was quite calm but knew that drastic changes would have to be made. Mom is quite stubborn. She likes to self medicate, eating all the bad food too. But this was definitely a wake up call. She's vowing to change her lifestyle, including taking up exercise, which we've been telling her to do for the longest time. She was surprised that her allowed 1 cup of rice was reduced to 1/3 cup. To encourage her a bit, we ate at Sushi Ninja, one of favorite places. Mostly sashimi and seafood and just one order of sushi so we could limit the rice to 1/3 cup. So even if there are unwelcome changes, there are ways to work with it and make it pleasant. Also, it helps to know that you have people around you, a support group, to help you through those changes.
After doing a little work we went home. I'm going to a wedding tom and was deciding what to wear. A lot of clothes don't fit me or don't suit me anymore. Hips don't lie! Some were tight on my butt, some were tight around my chest, some made my arms look bigger, some showed too much of my chest, some fit but didn't look age appropriate anymore. I must have tried around 10 dresses on. My body has just changed. My hips have gotten wider. In case it didn't get the memo I am nowhere near childbirth so I do not know what it's doing widening itself like that. Don't get me wrong, I'm probably the fittest I've been in a while. I do yoga 2-3 times a week, I run and do circuit or Zumba when I have the time. I'm watching my diet. But some things that were good on us before just don't work out. And that's is ok. I found a suitable one , one that I couldn't wear before because my belly was a bit puffy back then. So yes while my hips may have gotten wider, my stomach has gotten flatter. Yes!
I was trying to charge my phone but the cord was (ab)used and it wasn't working anymore. I've been trying to go without replacing for as long as I could. But yesterday it just gave up. I couldn't call the friends I needed to because I didn't have any battery left. I had to give special instructions to my driver to meet me at a certain spot at a certain time because I couldn't text him either. So I couldn't do what I wanted to do freely. I went to the store and bought a new one. My phone charged a lot faster and stayed on longer.
Sometimes we're confronted with a need to change but when we resist it, we lose out on better things. I wanted to hold off on the purchase because of course an apple charger can be expensive and gets broken so easily. So yes, change may be costly and you may have to keep doing it. But it can definitely lead to better things.
After yesterday's life lesson mini series, I'm deciding to embrace change a little more. I'm deciding to be a little more brave about it and I'm hopeful that it can be for the better.
Rhodes is leaving Manila for further studies. Honestly, I've never really gotten to know Rhodes until recently. But during the past few times that we did happen to meet up a d12, I've gotten to know her as such a smart person, so practical but still grounded in God's word. Exactly the kind of people I love surrounding myself with. She decided to resign from her job here, which she's great at, to pursue something she really wants to do - which is to teach. From a fairly stable job, she's heading to Bacolod, leaving her boyfriend, the comfort of her friends and things she's used to, to follow her dreams. She's a very brave woman you see, she stares at change and is not afraid of it.
To send Rhodes off properly, we decided to play frisbee, one of her favorite activities. I would typically say no. Because I'm so bad a team sports and I have little to zero hand eye coordination. Or that's what I thought . After today's game, I realized that I can actually play and don't give myself enough credit. I don't know when I got better or how I even did it. But I was pleasantly surprised with today's revelation. It made me remember the time we went shooting last November and one of the members in the gun club was surprised of how well I shot. We change. We get better.
And then there was a lot of talk about love and love lost. One of my other friends was sharing how she and this guy were practically dating. All the tell tale signs were there but even after a year somehow he never committed. We talked about how they would go out and how he'd show up at their office bearing food and gifts. How he would say the right things and do the right things. Then all of a sudden, just like a switch, he was so cold and distant. People change. They change their minds too.
Meanwhile, Mom was taking her daily blood sugar tests when the machine read "ketones". That had never happened and because it was blinking, that kind of alarmed her. Luckily, Raphie had a sleepover with her highschool friends and there happened to be 2 doctors. Mom asked them what blinking "ketones" meant and they urged her to go to the emergency room immediately. (Side note: dad passed away a couple of years ago primary cause was a heart attack, secondary cause was diabetic ketoacidosis)The emergency room said they couldn't help her and that she needed a diabetologist. Nina found one and managed to set an appointment that very same day. They headed to Makati Med and the doctor was quite calm but knew that drastic changes would have to be made. Mom is quite stubborn. She likes to self medicate, eating all the bad food too. But this was definitely a wake up call. She's vowing to change her lifestyle, including taking up exercise, which we've been telling her to do for the longest time. She was surprised that her allowed 1 cup of rice was reduced to 1/3 cup. To encourage her a bit, we ate at Sushi Ninja, one of favorite places. Mostly sashimi and seafood and just one order of sushi so we could limit the rice to 1/3 cup. So even if there are unwelcome changes, there are ways to work with it and make it pleasant. Also, it helps to know that you have people around you, a support group, to help you through those changes.
After doing a little work we went home. I'm going to a wedding tom and was deciding what to wear. A lot of clothes don't fit me or don't suit me anymore. Hips don't lie! Some were tight on my butt, some were tight around my chest, some made my arms look bigger, some showed too much of my chest, some fit but didn't look age appropriate anymore. I must have tried around 10 dresses on. My body has just changed. My hips have gotten wider. In case it didn't get the memo I am nowhere near childbirth so I do not know what it's doing widening itself like that. Don't get me wrong, I'm probably the fittest I've been in a while. I do yoga 2-3 times a week, I run and do circuit or Zumba when I have the time. I'm watching my diet. But some things that were good on us before just don't work out. And that's is ok. I found a suitable one , one that I couldn't wear before because my belly was a bit puffy back then. So yes while my hips may have gotten wider, my stomach has gotten flatter. Yes!
I was trying to charge my phone but the cord was (ab)used and it wasn't working anymore. I've been trying to go without replacing for as long as I could. But yesterday it just gave up. I couldn't call the friends I needed to because I didn't have any battery left. I had to give special instructions to my driver to meet me at a certain spot at a certain time because I couldn't text him either. So I couldn't do what I wanted to do freely. I went to the store and bought a new one. My phone charged a lot faster and stayed on longer.
Sometimes we're confronted with a need to change but when we resist it, we lose out on better things. I wanted to hold off on the purchase because of course an apple charger can be expensive and gets broken so easily. So yes, change may be costly and you may have to keep doing it. But it can definitely lead to better things.
After yesterday's life lesson mini series, I'm deciding to embrace change a little more. I'm deciding to be a little more brave about it and I'm hopeful that it can be for the better.