Change...wow it's hard.
These past three days I've had to say goodbye to some of the most amazing people i've ever known. Winter school at Capernwray Hall ended on the 25th and i can't describe to anyone who hasn't been there how much that sucked. I've spent 6months here, breathing this air, experiencing radicle emotions and life, being with the same people. I didnt' expect saying goodbye to this time here would be so hard but it is. I'm at school for an extra week helping witha kids program but the kids dont get here till monday. this place is like a ghosttown without everyone.
thursday night the coach left takeing away 46 of us, i had to say goodbye then to a few close friends...then all day yesterday people kept leaving bringing back the reality that my time here is over. there is a group of students going on an italy missions trip, two of my best capernwray friends are on it. they left at 4 this morning. that was hard. last night we cried and prayed, their friendship has been so so amazing and it breaks my heart saying goodbye. but i had to. so they're gone. i feel so ack... lost. bored. sad. i just want to be home now. plus i cna't find my bible hahaha. this has been one of the most amazing times of my life. not in the way i expected it at all, it wasn't always fun adn the most thrilling thing but it has been phenominal. it's going to be wierd being home and getting back into life there...even talking and being with my friends at home whom i've greatly missed. but its a change again and change is hard. i dotn want to fall back into my way of life at home, i dotn want to forget what went on here nad act like it never happened. being home at christmas sucked and something was wrong in my heart and spirit i still dont know exactly what but God does adn he's taught me so much through it all. man, i feel like i'm about to explode with all my stories, thoughts, pictures hahaha everthing from this place and yet i cna't release it yet. soon.
sorry for the rambles. that's all that's coming out.
i'm gonna go shower. i'm dirty.
thursday night the coach left takeing away 46 of us, i had to say goodbye then to a few close friends...then all day yesterday people kept leaving bringing back the reality that my time here is over. there is a group of students going on an italy missions trip, two of my best capernwray friends are on it. they left at 4 this morning. that was hard. last night we cried and prayed, their friendship has been so so amazing and it breaks my heart saying goodbye. but i had to. so they're gone. i feel so ack... lost. bored. sad. i just want to be home now. plus i cna't find my bible hahaha. this has been one of the most amazing times of my life. not in the way i expected it at all, it wasn't always fun adn the most thrilling thing but it has been phenominal. it's going to be wierd being home and getting back into life there...even talking and being with my friends at home whom i've greatly missed. but its a change again and change is hard. i dotn want to fall back into my way of life at home, i dotn want to forget what went on here nad act like it never happened. being home at christmas sucked and something was wrong in my heart and spirit i still dont know exactly what but God does adn he's taught me so much through it all. man, i feel like i'm about to explode with all my stories, thoughts, pictures hahaha everthing from this place and yet i cna't release it yet. soon.
sorry for the rambles. that's all that's coming out.
i'm gonna go shower. i'm dirty.