.a heavy heart becomes reality.
My day:
10:30. awake. shower. lounge. leave for eye appointment get check and go to bank.
12:00 arrive for eye appointment. told they are running like a half hour late. finally get int but not seen by regular dr.davies but cute dr."call me john". perscription a tad worse *of course i'm going blind* he puts this wierd iris widening drops in my eye and tells me he'll get me in like 15 min to check them out. ok so this "test" totally made me feel like i was on something or that i was aging like made. I coulnd't focus, i had to pull my glasses of to read things near me and my eyes felt heavy, it totally wierded me out. sorta fun thought. I picked out new frames and ordered my contacts. WOW i spent a lot of money at the stupid eye care place. cute dr john checked my eyes and put on this funny hat with a light on it and i almost LOST IT! it was soo funny but i gained composure and didtn' laugh in the mans face. *phew* then he was done and i chucheld to myself at how silly this fine young mand looked. haha.
1:30. visit mom at work tell her about new frames and $$$$ my check spent. OUCH.
2:00 get home and call jess.
2:15 jess comes over and maia does as well and we watch the punisher. OK it is IMPOSIBLE to watch a movie at my house it soo flippin noisey!oh i know i love it but it's frustrating for sure.
4:30 ish. we go to moxies for dinner. i always have wierd waiters there. and tongith was no different. she kept asking us if we had questions and repeated things i'd say...odd...she looked like kirsten dunst. she was very nice thought. atleast it wasnt' mr.intensity.
6:30 maia and I went to the sponsor meeting. I'ts going to be wierd not being here. and even though i know i'm not being "replaced" by the new people adn i'm very excited to see how God will use them adn how thigns will grow while i'm gone. i'm sad that i won't be a part of it.
8:30 it ends. and we all just hang out.
9:45ish...maia and I leave the boys, hide in chris' jeep...wait and wait...talk adn wait. decide they are going to too long so get out.
10:15ish...TP the inside of chris' jeep. ah ha ha.
10:30 wait..and wait and wait for the boys to come out.
11:00 hear chris laugh. *we are in the back seat of maia's car with the window down, hidden so no one can see us* look, he is laughing and ryan is looking with his flashlight for us. tee hee. ryan and matt leave and chris is locked out of the church and yeah it's just funny...jay comes down and they talk for a minute...one of those ones where it's like oops...we can hear you but you dont know we can. hahaha. yeah good times. maia nad I are dorks. yes. but we have tons of fun and laught and talk and enjoy it so it's all good.
11:15 we get slushies.
11:30 i come onto computer and think....
11:34 discover i have a heavy, burdened heart. it's a mix between confusion, nerves about my trip, mandys wedding stuff, my leaving, everything that is just hanging in the air and my slacker way of living my christian life right now...not living it out but LIVING it ya know, and also burdened for others. ack. it gets me all the time. yet i KNOW that everything will be ok. i get in moods like this at times, it shall pass and yeah, GOd is good. cliche sure whatever. i've said my rant on cliches once a long time ago. God is the only constant, perfect, dependable, trustworthy anything that we will ever know. what an honor.
10:30. awake. shower. lounge. leave for eye appointment get check and go to bank.
12:00 arrive for eye appointment. told they are running like a half hour late. finally get int but not seen by regular dr.davies but cute dr."call me john". perscription a tad worse *of course i'm going blind* he puts this wierd iris widening drops in my eye and tells me he'll get me in like 15 min to check them out. ok so this "test" totally made me feel like i was on something or that i was aging like made. I coulnd't focus, i had to pull my glasses of to read things near me and my eyes felt heavy, it totally wierded me out. sorta fun thought. I picked out new frames and ordered my contacts. WOW i spent a lot of money at the stupid eye care place. cute dr john checked my eyes and put on this funny hat with a light on it and i almost LOST IT! it was soo funny but i gained composure and didtn' laugh in the mans face. *phew* then he was done and i chucheld to myself at how silly this fine young mand looked. haha.
1:30. visit mom at work tell her about new frames and $$$$ my check spent. OUCH.
2:00 get home and call jess.
2:15 jess comes over and maia does as well and we watch the punisher. OK it is IMPOSIBLE to watch a movie at my house it soo flippin noisey!oh i know i love it but it's frustrating for sure.
4:30 ish. we go to moxies for dinner. i always have wierd waiters there. and tongith was no different. she kept asking us if we had questions and repeated things i'd say...odd...she looked like kirsten dunst. she was very nice thought. atleast it wasnt' mr.intensity.
6:30 maia and I went to the sponsor meeting. I'ts going to be wierd not being here. and even though i know i'm not being "replaced" by the new people adn i'm very excited to see how God will use them adn how thigns will grow while i'm gone. i'm sad that i won't be a part of it.
8:30 it ends. and we all just hang out.
9:45ish...maia and I leave the boys, hide in chris' jeep...wait and wait...talk adn wait. decide they are going to too long so get out.
10:15ish...TP the inside of chris' jeep. ah ha ha.
10:30 wait..and wait and wait for the boys to come out.
11:00 hear chris laugh. *we are in the back seat of maia's car with the window down, hidden so no one can see us* look, he is laughing and ryan is looking with his flashlight for us. tee hee. ryan and matt leave and chris is locked out of the church and yeah it's just funny...jay comes down and they talk for a minute...one of those ones where it's like oops...we can hear you but you dont know we can. hahaha. yeah good times. maia nad I are dorks. yes. but we have tons of fun and laught and talk and enjoy it so it's all good.
11:15 we get slushies.
11:30 i come onto computer and think....
11:34 discover i have a heavy, burdened heart. it's a mix between confusion, nerves about my trip, mandys wedding stuff, my leaving, everything that is just hanging in the air and my slacker way of living my christian life right now...not living it out but LIVING it ya know, and also burdened for others. ack. it gets me all the time. yet i KNOW that everything will be ok. i get in moods like this at times, it shall pass and yeah, GOd is good. cliche sure whatever. i've said my rant on cliches once a long time ago. God is the only constant, perfect, dependable, trustworthy anything that we will ever know. what an honor.