Relationship updates.
Things have progressed a bit. YTS's aprtment thing fell through due to his roomate not turning in ANY OF HER PAPERWORK and then telling him she did.
Did she not think he would find out? Oh, she also told me I should dump YTS. Vague reasons why, nothing specific.
And of course, YTS and I talked about it all. He was afraid I really would dump him. I'm not stupid enough to take some random person I've met TWICE over the guy I'm dating.
And it's sad, she was supposed to be his best friend! And she jsut...turned on him. I dunno what is up with people.
He's seriously amazed I've had friends for over 15 years, like Lizzie. He says people seem to stab him in the back/dump him as a friend after a year or two.
I find it odd, I mean, he's the same guy with me as he is with friends, Rocko confirmed this,so it's not like he's presenting some completely diffident image to me.
Anyways, because his thing fell through, he's been staying with me. Not for free, he's willing to help out and all that. He just hates my brother and his girlfriend (who, do I blame him? No. I hate them too)
So he went over his parents for the weekend, so he wouldn't trounce my brother, who is in bitchy mode (since his GF is around constantly to nag him, it always happens) and trying to pick fights with anyone and everyone, including YTS.
It's all bullshit, I really think the house would do better if Justin was in a diff place entirely. I mean, not here.
Ugh what I wouldn't give to win the lottery!
I'd have such evil plans.
Anyways, living with YTS is...surprisingly easy. We had little of the 'awkward' phase, and settled into 'we've only been dating three months? Feels like longer"
I made a joke about how I had cactus legs and had to take a shower to shave them, he earnestly goes "you don't have to, it won't bother me...don't do it just because you think I won't like it." and the small fights we've had have always worked out to what we can do to communicate more, and what he can do to make me happy.
I'm not used to that. I'm not used to someone wanting me to be happy, and actively trying. I'm not used to someone wanting to buy me things just to make me smile, not because they want something in return, or to lord it over me later.
I'm just not used to someone being the whole package. And for me? YTS is.
Sure, he's fucking gorgeous, but...he's also loyal as hell, attentive, and concerned about my well being. He asks me how I feel everyday. He gives me hugs and backrubs when I'm sore. He naps with me when I'm tired.
He's just...I keep telling him he's a fantastic boyfriend, and he is.
And he's so sweet it makes me want to cry.
I kept telling him when we first met, I just kept going "Oh my god, this guy is so hot, what would he want with me? My god, he likes me, how is this possible?! He wants to spend more time with me? He wants to KISS ME?"
And I told him I felt like I hit the jackpot because he liked me.
He turned to me and said "You know how you always say how lucky you are to be with me? That you weren't sure why this supposed h ot guy wants you? I always keep asking myself why this gorgeous woman wants to be with me."
He said this to me while I'm in sweats, no makeup, hair in a ponytail. He still calls me beautiful, after seeing me so sick I could barely move.
He notices when I 'dress up' and makes a point to tell me I look pretty.
I know this is the 'honeymoon' phase, but god I forgot how nice it could be to find someone who wants to be around you, no matter what. Who accepts you, flaws and all.
And who doesn't judge you on your disabilities, or makes you feel guilty for having them.
All in all, I'm still kind of in a daze. I can see this being a long term thing, if not a 'forever' thing. I haven't met his family yet, but I'm hoping they like me. I know my mom likes him, and my dad doesn't seem to be adverse to him.
We'll see. As for now, I am enjoying being cared for, and caring for him in return.
Did she not think he would find out? Oh, she also told me I should dump YTS. Vague reasons why, nothing specific.
And of course, YTS and I talked about it all. He was afraid I really would dump him. I'm not stupid enough to take some random person I've met TWICE over the guy I'm dating.
And it's sad, she was supposed to be his best friend! And she jsut...turned on him. I dunno what is up with people.
He's seriously amazed I've had friends for over 15 years, like Lizzie. He says people seem to stab him in the back/dump him as a friend after a year or two.
I find it odd, I mean, he's the same guy with me as he is with friends, Rocko confirmed this,so it's not like he's presenting some completely diffident image to me.
Anyways, because his thing fell through, he's been staying with me. Not for free, he's willing to help out and all that. He just hates my brother and his girlfriend (who, do I blame him? No. I hate them too)
So he went over his parents for the weekend, so he wouldn't trounce my brother, who is in bitchy mode (since his GF is around constantly to nag him, it always happens) and trying to pick fights with anyone and everyone, including YTS.
It's all bullshit, I really think the house would do better if Justin was in a diff place entirely. I mean, not here.
Ugh what I wouldn't give to win the lottery!
I'd have such evil plans.
Anyways, living with YTS is...surprisingly easy. We had little of the 'awkward' phase, and settled into 'we've only been dating three months? Feels like longer"
I made a joke about how I had cactus legs and had to take a shower to shave them, he earnestly goes "you don't have to, it won't bother me...don't do it just because you think I won't like it." and the small fights we've had have always worked out to what we can do to communicate more, and what he can do to make me happy.
I'm not used to that. I'm not used to someone wanting me to be happy, and actively trying. I'm not used to someone wanting to buy me things just to make me smile, not because they want something in return, or to lord it over me later.
I'm just not used to someone being the whole package. And for me? YTS is.
Sure, he's fucking gorgeous, but...he's also loyal as hell, attentive, and concerned about my well being. He asks me how I feel everyday. He gives me hugs and backrubs when I'm sore. He naps with me when I'm tired.
He's just...I keep telling him he's a fantastic boyfriend, and he is.
And he's so sweet it makes me want to cry.
I kept telling him when we first met, I just kept going "Oh my god, this guy is so hot, what would he want with me? My god, he likes me, how is this possible?! He wants to spend more time with me? He wants to KISS ME?"
And I told him I felt like I hit the jackpot because he liked me.
He turned to me and said "You know how you always say how lucky you are to be with me? That you weren't sure why this supposed h ot guy wants you? I always keep asking myself why this gorgeous woman wants to be with me."
He said this to me while I'm in sweats, no makeup, hair in a ponytail. He still calls me beautiful, after seeing me so sick I could barely move.
He notices when I 'dress up' and makes a point to tell me I look pretty.
I know this is the 'honeymoon' phase, but god I forgot how nice it could be to find someone who wants to be around you, no matter what. Who accepts you, flaws and all.
And who doesn't judge you on your disabilities, or makes you feel guilty for having them.
All in all, I'm still kind of in a daze. I can see this being a long term thing, if not a 'forever' thing. I haven't met his family yet, but I'm hoping they like me. I know my mom likes him, and my dad doesn't seem to be adverse to him.
We'll see. As for now, I am enjoying being cared for, and caring for him in return.