"No. 2. Be a friend, a true one"
These past few weeks have been a chain of victories and defeats. I guess life is always like that but these ones were big ones to me.
Each day I wake up I make sure that I set out to do something. Now when I mean something I don't mean just any something but something as in a purpose. Most days it is something new with an over all big goal in mind. My goals have been to 1.Get through this semester with GOOD gredes 2.Work for money like i don't need it 3.Be a soul mate, a good one.
Lets start with goal 1. I have always had motivational problems in school. I can never ge my ass to do any work, at least the importiant things. Im proud to say I had a very successful semester. I won't lie i really slacked off there for about a week at the end but i whipped my ass in shape and pulled it through. I havn't gotten my grades yet but im SURE that I got all A's and B's. yay! Victory! As a reward I am taking the first part of the summer off to RELAX and then im gonna get going in school again. Im pretty excited. Bring on the challenge! Ok maybe im not ready for that kind of boasting but I cna't help it.
Now lets skip goal No. 2 for the moment and go to No. 3. Things have been going great with me and Tom. I can't believe it but we have been going strong for 10 months now. I am living with him and things are great! I think I am going through that stage after the Lovey-dovey stage where you are just comfterble with just being with that person. When you are away at work you miss them but appreciate that time away. We have learned how to cater to one another and now can jsut dance through life. Talk of the future has toned down bc it would just be toying with the more possible journey of more that lay ahead. I know, its only been ten months but we have been able to connect at a soul level. Something completely indescribable. Aaah its good. I couldn't ask for more. Another victory :D
Goal No.3 Is big but I will only touch on litely as I could go on forever. This one is a cross btwn a victory and defeat. However it is momentaraly over whelmed with defeat. Unfortunately I am not so good at managing people. I think I tend to step on teos that really don't need to be stepped on. Well ok, I take that back, they need to be stepped on but not so hard. I made some big decisions while running the stores while bj was gone. I was given ALOT of authority. I could litereally do what ever I wanted, except blow the place up. Ofcourse, I ran every thing by Big Boss BJ and he agreed with every thing. Still, I wish I would have taken a step back before I jumped. I lost two really good friends durring this whole thing. I appolagized but I know it was no use. I'd done the deed and burned it all up. I realized that there needed to be a different No.2. No.2 should have been "2. Be a friend, a true one." Every one that I have talked to about the situation has said two things: a.It shouldn't have been the end of things, it was business, not personal. And b.I shouldn't care any ways bc they clearly weren't my true friends either. Ok sure they did back stabbing of their own (www.theblogrevolution.com cool place check it out, interesting stuff said by my "friends") but to me it really isn't about that. To me its about what I could have done to be a true good firend. I have done this same thing before. When it was me and Kayla and Allie I totally FUCKED things up. Pretty much lost the greatest friends I ever had for a while. Saddly Ill never ever get that back. Luckly a common history has kept us linked and I am able to share the little of their lives that I deserve after that whole mess. The only difference in this situation is that they really truely were my friends. I beleieve that they intended for us to all be the greatest of friends FOREVER and never said anything close to the things said this time around. (I could really go on and on about how screwed up the whole thing is and that I wasn't the only one being a fake friend as they call it. I won't bc i really really care about one of the two and I know that saying more would do no good.) The point is, Work quickly turned from work, to my life and thats all I care about. Ok I think my brief ness has expired. I did work for money but not like I didn't need it. I deff put my JOB first which wasn't ok with me. Defeat! Lesson, change goal No.2 and don't step on toes too hard.
Life moves on so I really can't stop to toil in defeat or wade in victory. So, till later!
Each day I wake up I make sure that I set out to do something. Now when I mean something I don't mean just any something but something as in a purpose. Most days it is something new with an over all big goal in mind. My goals have been to 1.Get through this semester with GOOD gredes 2.Work for money like i don't need it 3.Be a soul mate, a good one.
Lets start with goal 1. I have always had motivational problems in school. I can never ge my ass to do any work, at least the importiant things. Im proud to say I had a very successful semester. I won't lie i really slacked off there for about a week at the end but i whipped my ass in shape and pulled it through. I havn't gotten my grades yet but im SURE that I got all A's and B's. yay! Victory! As a reward I am taking the first part of the summer off to RELAX and then im gonna get going in school again. Im pretty excited. Bring on the challenge! Ok maybe im not ready for that kind of boasting but I cna't help it.
Now lets skip goal No. 2 for the moment and go to No. 3. Things have been going great with me and Tom. I can't believe it but we have been going strong for 10 months now. I am living with him and things are great! I think I am going through that stage after the Lovey-dovey stage where you are just comfterble with just being with that person. When you are away at work you miss them but appreciate that time away. We have learned how to cater to one another and now can jsut dance through life. Talk of the future has toned down bc it would just be toying with the more possible journey of more that lay ahead. I know, its only been ten months but we have been able to connect at a soul level. Something completely indescribable. Aaah its good. I couldn't ask for more. Another victory :D
Goal No.3 Is big but I will only touch on litely as I could go on forever. This one is a cross btwn a victory and defeat. However it is momentaraly over whelmed with defeat. Unfortunately I am not so good at managing people. I think I tend to step on teos that really don't need to be stepped on. Well ok, I take that back, they need to be stepped on but not so hard. I made some big decisions while running the stores while bj was gone. I was given ALOT of authority. I could litereally do what ever I wanted, except blow the place up. Ofcourse, I ran every thing by Big Boss BJ and he agreed with every thing. Still, I wish I would have taken a step back before I jumped. I lost two really good friends durring this whole thing. I appolagized but I know it was no use. I'd done the deed and burned it all up. I realized that there needed to be a different No.2. No.2 should have been "2. Be a friend, a true one." Every one that I have talked to about the situation has said two things: a.It shouldn't have been the end of things, it was business, not personal. And b.I shouldn't care any ways bc they clearly weren't my true friends either. Ok sure they did back stabbing of their own (www.theblogrevolution.com cool place check it out, interesting stuff said by my "friends") but to me it really isn't about that. To me its about what I could have done to be a true good firend. I have done this same thing before. When it was me and Kayla and Allie I totally FUCKED things up. Pretty much lost the greatest friends I ever had for a while. Saddly Ill never ever get that back. Luckly a common history has kept us linked and I am able to share the little of their lives that I deserve after that whole mess. The only difference in this situation is that they really truely were my friends. I beleieve that they intended for us to all be the greatest of friends FOREVER and never said anything close to the things said this time around. (I could really go on and on about how screwed up the whole thing is and that I wasn't the only one being a fake friend as they call it. I won't bc i really really care about one of the two and I know that saying more would do no good.) The point is, Work quickly turned from work, to my life and thats all I care about. Ok I think my brief ness has expired. I did work for money but not like I didn't need it. I deff put my JOB first which wasn't ok with me. Defeat! Lesson, change goal No.2 and don't step on toes too hard.
Life moves on so I really can't stop to toil in defeat or wade in victory. So, till later!