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Sad as it may sound, I've grown jealous of highschool kids. Not of the constant girl drama or actually being in highschool.
Really, I guess what I miss is my seventeen year old self. I miss who I was before all that "real world" stuff started hitting. Feeling infinite, like I could be whatever I could be just because I had the drive to do what I wanted with life.
I really miss being able to write. My ability to write has always been something I've relied on. I may not be Salinger or Fitzgerald or anything, but I've always been able to turn out something decent without too much effort. I miss wanting to write for myself.
And I guess I also miss being able to design without structure in mind, but you have to learn the rules to break them, right? Hopefully I'll still remember how.
I envy those who are still wide-eyed because I miss feeling like my life is completely in my hands, instead of it being controlled by how much money I have in my savings account, so that I can create a feasible "five-year-plan". I miss having time to actually live life.
p.s. merry christmas & happy new year.