burn baby burn
i hate emo posts so im gonna do my best not to do that to all of you
hmm update on megan
well im working as a dispatcher for public safety at mcc's red mtn campus. i get to sit on the computer all day and do data input every now and then.
i started dancing again and just finished a show at the herberger theater. im gonna audition for this dance group called Nebellen next
I have awesome friends (which by the way) are having a party next friday for teds 21st bday. the theme is pirates so all the girls come as pirate hookers and the guys as captains or sailors or whatever. matteo, alexis, and all of u are invited. its right on mcqueen and frye and its free alcohol.
i had an amazing bday. surprise party and a good xmas. altho it was different spending it at the hosptial with my g-pa
me and marissa are closer than ever. thats always awesome
had a very good relationship with someone that i will never forget. itjust gets hard. he lives in clai and wont be here till may. hes the infamous guy from the last post. at the lastpost he had told me he didnt know if he wnated to stay together when he was gone. i made the decision for him two days ago and told him i just want to be friends. if he has to wait and figure out if he likes me then he's not the kind of guy i want to be with. 5 months really isnt that long when clai is so close.
anyway. ever since i told him that he has been sending me messages non stop and iming me too. now the question is "is he missing me cause he never thought i would leave him. he thought i would wait around. and now that he knows i wont he getting scared of losing me. OR...... we have now established were friends only so he talks to me all the time because hee knows i wont think anyting of it.
damn i hate being a girl and over thinking everything
butive never liked someone this much. never ever. and i cnat get him out of my mind. im trying my best to stay away. i never call him. never email him first. never im him first. i let him iniciate convo. and i keep myself busy. i dont want to just sit around cring about him. but i miss him. and i think id die if i saw him with anyone else
he's coming out nxt weekend for the party. and im so scared to see what will happen. i just want to jump on him and kiss him rightwhen he walks in. but then it goes back to him thinking he's got me. and i canthave that. if he wnats me he'll work for me. and if he dare do anything with a girl in front of me. ill call him an asshole to his face.
fuck... if its meant to be megan it will be. even if ur heart screams out that he's the one for u..... only time will tel.
argh!
hmm update on megan
well im working as a dispatcher for public safety at mcc's red mtn campus. i get to sit on the computer all day and do data input every now and then.
i started dancing again and just finished a show at the herberger theater. im gonna audition for this dance group called Nebellen next
I have awesome friends (which by the way) are having a party next friday for teds 21st bday. the theme is pirates so all the girls come as pirate hookers and the guys as captains or sailors or whatever. matteo, alexis, and all of u are invited. its right on mcqueen and frye and its free alcohol.
i had an amazing bday. surprise party and a good xmas. altho it was different spending it at the hosptial with my g-pa
me and marissa are closer than ever. thats always awesome
had a very good relationship with someone that i will never forget. itjust gets hard. he lives in clai and wont be here till may. hes the infamous guy from the last post. at the lastpost he had told me he didnt know if he wnated to stay together when he was gone. i made the decision for him two days ago and told him i just want to be friends. if he has to wait and figure out if he likes me then he's not the kind of guy i want to be with. 5 months really isnt that long when clai is so close.
anyway. ever since i told him that he has been sending me messages non stop and iming me too. now the question is "is he missing me cause he never thought i would leave him. he thought i would wait around. and now that he knows i wont he getting scared of losing me. OR...... we have now established were friends only so he talks to me all the time because hee knows i wont think anyting of it.
damn i hate being a girl and over thinking everything
butive never liked someone this much. never ever. and i cnat get him out of my mind. im trying my best to stay away. i never call him. never email him first. never im him first. i let him iniciate convo. and i keep myself busy. i dont want to just sit around cring about him. but i miss him. and i think id die if i saw him with anyone else
he's coming out nxt weekend for the party. and im so scared to see what will happen. i just want to jump on him and kiss him rightwhen he walks in. but then it goes back to him thinking he's got me. and i canthave that. if he wnats me he'll work for me. and if he dare do anything with a girl in front of me. ill call him an asshole to his face.
fuck... if its meant to be megan it will be. even if ur heart screams out that he's the one for u..... only time will tel.
argh!