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I've been thinking about LJ a a lot lately. I miss it, but I guess that's because I've been thinking about last year a lot & LJ was my life last year. I miss a lot of things....
I miss not having to schedule time to see my best friend like two weeks in advance.
I miss seeing Ryan every day for a minimum 1600 minutes.
I miss Carly Brown & just being amazing with her.
I miss the lunch crew <3.
I miss only really needing two people in my life & them only needing us.
I miss us a whole lot <3333
I miss the day all three of us went to a show together & all had a crush on this boy:
& then ditched it, as always, & had a picnic at LL.
I miss laying on the ice terrified with Abbs & talking
I miss clinging to Ryan because I was scared, or cold, or just because I could
I miss walking around with you guys
I miss being Mary, Jesus, & Mary
I miss how comfortable it all was
I MISS BEING NAÏVE
But at the same time, I love this year.
I love how it's so much easier to get along with Ryan, even though it also means I never get to see or talk to him.
I love all my new friends.
I love how much easier school is.
I love how I can go unnoticed if I want to.
I love how happy I am
I'm still scared though, cause I know how easily I'll fall back into my old self.
I already have a few times.
I still think like I use to.
I still do things that I use to.
& it scares me to death.
I never thought it was really true, but once you start..you really never stop
I miss not having to schedule time to see my best friend like two weeks in advance.
I miss seeing Ryan every day for a minimum 1600 minutes.
I miss Carly Brown & just being amazing with her.
I miss the lunch crew <3.
I miss only really needing two people in my life & them only needing us.
I miss us a whole lot <3333
I miss the day all three of us went to a show together & all had a crush on this boy:
& then ditched it, as always, & had a picnic at LL.
I miss laying on the ice terrified with Abbs & talking
I miss clinging to Ryan because I was scared, or cold, or just because I could
I miss walking around with you guys
I miss being Mary, Jesus, & Mary
I miss how comfortable it all was
I MISS BEING NAÏVE
But at the same time, I love this year.
I love how it's so much easier to get along with Ryan, even though it also means I never get to see or talk to him.
I love all my new friends.
I love how much easier school is.
I love how I can go unnoticed if I want to.
I love how happy I am
I'm still scared though, cause I know how easily I'll fall back into my old self.
I already have a few times.
I still think like I use to.
I still do things that I use to.
& it scares me to death.
I never thought it was really true, but once you start..you really never stop