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I got really pissed off today. I got really sad today. It scared me. I really can't last to long being happy. It doesn't work. I tried. I failed. I can't go away with Abby. Which means I can't get away from my family. So instead, I might just go to my sister's early. Every summer I go to my sister's to get away from people. I go there to break friendships. It never works. Whatever, it helps a lot. I love being there. I hope I get to go out there early. I really want to hang out with Aubrey. I want to talk to her. I plan on telling her everything that has been going on in my life. How everything went to hell shortly after she last saw me. How I've been both subconsciously and consciously depressed ever since. How nothing I've done so far can help me. How that if my mom ever finds out I'm so screwed. How maybe I'm not really scared of getting sent away. How maybe I wouldn't mind that just because it would mean I would be able to get out of this horrible place I'm in. How I really do want help, because I do want to be happy. How I'm probably not going to be a good honors student in high school. How I'm probably going to end up becoming friends with druggies and loners and freaks, because god knows that's all I am anyway. I can only imagine that she won't be happy about the family comments, so maybe I won't make them. Those will only upset her. I don't want to upset her, cause she understands me. And maybe I'll get to see my cousin too. I kinda hope so, but I also hope I don't, I'm scared of seeing her. I'm scared of a lot of things, but now, high school isn't one of them. I'm looking forward to it. I hope I'll find people there to make me happy, I really do.