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i am so freaking bored...the phone isn't even ringing...i've watched like 8 episodes of friends...did my list of things to do...so now i am just writing in my lj and i really have nothing to say or do...so yeah lets see what's going on in my life right now? nothing...god my life is boring...maybe my life isn't boring but since it's my life its boring to me...okay i can't take it anymore i'm totally leaving in like 45 mins...i'm gonna get a haircut cause when i dyed my hair it friend it so i need to get it trimmed...ugh i really hate that i ruined my hair...but maybe i will deep condition it again...so i hope everyone will have fun at my birthday party...i hope i do...i just wish things were better with my family...i haven't spoken to my mom in awhile which is weird cause normally i talk to her everyday...i should apologize but at the same time i'm still really mad and i don't want to go over there and get into another fight...i mean it really sucks that it's my 25th and i'm not even going to be able to spend it with my family...so i don't know what i am going to do on sunday...i guess i will just sleep...or something...although i'm not really feeling a party though...jeff keeps telling me to have it because it's my birthday...but with all this other shit going on in my life i don't feel like celebrating...i was so excited about this party and now i wish i had never let anyone know about it...another thing is i don't have that much money for a party but i have told everyone that it is byob...so i guess i should have some chips and bottles of soda...this sucks...my party is going to blow...grr...so frustrated...