ugh i need to get away
okay so like it happened again i ended up hurting a friend and i never meant to hurt her because she has been such a good friend...i feel bad but i can't change the past...i mean how many times do i have to apologize? oh well...i need to focus on friend that i really need to focus on... so i am changing my hair...looking for a new job cause ruby's ain't paying me...and actually come to think of it it's probably good that i'm not hanging out with the people i was presently hanging out with cause i was doing a lot of bad things and i need to grow up...god i just want to get a way...i need to go on vacation...maybe go visit my brother in seattle or something...i need to change my life dramatically...but i just don't know how...even if everything blows over i still need to make a huge change in my life...i hate who i am turning into...i just would love to be able to get out of my skin for a few days...but i can't go anywhere until i get money and i don't have money cause i work at ruby tuesday's and i need to find a new job...okay if anyone has a spare thousand dollars hanging around please feel free to send them to me...i do accept checks...