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I used to be confused about my sexuality. I thought I liked boys all of my life, but a few years ago that simple preference was thrown out of orbit when I began to find myself attracted to other girls, always fat ones with bellies, and turned on by another female's weight gain. As I grew comfortable with it and because my primary interest in guys didn't change, I began saying I was bi-sexual, although only to myself. Over time I realized I was just confused, doing silly things while I was maturing. In the end I concluded, with full confidence, that I am heterosexual, because I really am, very definitely.
Recently I came to another conclusion about my sexuality: when it comes to certain things, my preference transcends my heterosexuality. For an example: Last week I was with Alexis at her house. After devouring tons of pizza and a large bowl of ice cream, Alexis proposed we bake some cookies, and this is after she already mentions how full she is. Alexis is one of people who will set down their plate, announcing they're too full to eat another bite, and minutes later reach for a heap of garlic bread from the ; the kind of person who will desirously eye the cake, wanting more, after eating a large piece. Of course, I'm one of people too! Maybe that's why Alexis and I get along so well. Anyway, we do bake cookies, it doesn't take very long, and they come out soon, delicious and ready to eat. As soon as they're cool enough to eat. Alexis proceeded to gobble down her half of the share with a glass or two of milk. She finished all of them by the time I had eaten 4! After that, she started to rub her stomach and complain about how stuffed she was. I started getting turned on watching an already stuffed Alexis inhale a dozen cookies, but by the time she was lying on her stomach, trying to make it stop hurting, I had to fight the desire to turn her over and massage her poor tummy.
The day after this, I went home with the butterflies in my stomach feeling of a crush. I grew terrified for a short while thinking I had a crush on my best friend. However, I calmed down, realizing I was just being silly and naive. When she and I met back up later that evening, my hypothesis was confirmed: I had no such feeling as having a crush on her. During this past week, though, I've been getting especially tickled watching Alexis eat. I've had fantasies and dreams of feeding her as well.
Therefore, I came to the conclusion that I like guys, but when it comes to bellies, eating, and weight gain my preferences goes beyond guys. In fact, I think it may even be increased. Although, I like guys, it seems I'm more attracted to weight gain and fat bodies of other fellow girls.
My summer has picked back up now that Alexis is back in town from Seattle. I'm pretty jealous of her this summer... She's already been on cruise and got to spend a week with a friend in Seattle. At the end of the summer, she will be spending like two weeks in San Franciso. However, later this month she's taking me to Disney World for a week! Other than that, I'm just staying at home all summer. If all goes well, I will get to see my cousin for a couple of days next week, though. My plans for today? I don't really have any, but I do want to go to the gym later. I haven't exercised much this week since I've been spending most of my time with Alexis almost daily.
Oh yeah, one more thing! I don't know what the average body type is considered to be these days, but I think we need to go ahead and declare it as being chubby. I visited Six Flags (an amusement park in case you didn't know) weeks ago. I was hard to find anyone without a considerable gut there! Looking back, I would think that if anyone frequently visited the park, they would have to be at least a little chubby, seeing how the only food we ate all day was pizza, ice cream, and funnel cake (lots of it, too). And now anytime I'm out in a public place with lots of people, like a mall for instance, it looks like everyone is pudgy!
Recently I came to another conclusion about my sexuality: when it comes to certain things, my preference transcends my heterosexuality. For an example: Last week I was with Alexis at her house. After devouring tons of pizza and a large bowl of ice cream, Alexis proposed we bake some cookies, and this is after she already mentions how full she is. Alexis is one of people who will set down their plate, announcing they're too full to eat another bite, and minutes later reach for a heap of garlic bread from the ; the kind of person who will desirously eye the cake, wanting more, after eating a large piece. Of course, I'm one of people too! Maybe that's why Alexis and I get along so well. Anyway, we do bake cookies, it doesn't take very long, and they come out soon, delicious and ready to eat. As soon as they're cool enough to eat. Alexis proceeded to gobble down her half of the share with a glass or two of milk. She finished all of them by the time I had eaten 4! After that, she started to rub her stomach and complain about how stuffed she was. I started getting turned on watching an already stuffed Alexis inhale a dozen cookies, but by the time she was lying on her stomach, trying to make it stop hurting, I had to fight the desire to turn her over and massage her poor tummy.
The day after this, I went home with the butterflies in my stomach feeling of a crush. I grew terrified for a short while thinking I had a crush on my best friend. However, I calmed down, realizing I was just being silly and naive. When she and I met back up later that evening, my hypothesis was confirmed: I had no such feeling as having a crush on her. During this past week, though, I've been getting especially tickled watching Alexis eat. I've had fantasies and dreams of feeding her as well.
Therefore, I came to the conclusion that I like guys, but when it comes to bellies, eating, and weight gain my preferences goes beyond guys. In fact, I think it may even be increased. Although, I like guys, it seems I'm more attracted to weight gain and fat bodies of other fellow girls.
My summer has picked back up now that Alexis is back in town from Seattle. I'm pretty jealous of her this summer... She's already been on cruise and got to spend a week with a friend in Seattle. At the end of the summer, she will be spending like two weeks in San Franciso. However, later this month she's taking me to Disney World for a week! Other than that, I'm just staying at home all summer. If all goes well, I will get to see my cousin for a couple of days next week, though. My plans for today? I don't really have any, but I do want to go to the gym later. I haven't exercised much this week since I've been spending most of my time with Alexis almost daily.
Oh yeah, one more thing! I don't know what the average body type is considered to be these days, but I think we need to go ahead and declare it as being chubby. I visited Six Flags (an amusement park in case you didn't know) weeks ago. I was hard to find anyone without a considerable gut there! Looking back, I would think that if anyone frequently visited the park, they would have to be at least a little chubby, seeing how the only food we ate all day was pizza, ice cream, and funnel cake (lots of it, too). And now anytime I'm out in a public place with lots of people, like a mall for instance, it looks like everyone is pudgy!