umm....re-hello
jesus fucking christ...i´m grounded.....i´m not allowed on the comp but basically i just admit i´m on when she catches me(yes, the tyraness) and since she´s suuuuuuuuuuuuuuuchh a good mother she just looks at me funny/angry-ish and marches off....BUT DOESN´T DO A GODDAMN THING ABOUT IT!!!!!!!...but other things i´m prohibited but can´t get out of...or, err, into....are going out on weekends, going out regularly, etc.....and everytime i´m on the comp or watching tv...and it´s not like i´m there for fucking hours or anything....she´s nagging, nag naggity nag nagg!!!!!...BITCH!!!!!! FUCK OFF!!!!
why am i so double di dooper grounded....i failed 3 classes, ...but strangely i have a better gpa than the class average gpa.....hmmm....MAYBE IT´S FUCKING NORMAL THIS YEAR!!!!!!!! ...(in spain anywhooz)...and especially for me goddamit, she just doesn´t get i´m NOT gunna get the same grades as the people born and raised THEIR WHOLE LIVES over here....she just doesnt fucking get it...i think i´m doing pretty dandfy considering bitch!!!!....fucking-a!
anywhooz, just found out my brother, who HAS been allowed out every fucking day of the week and weekend, failed 8...out of 11...in 9th grade.....at that age i failed 2 at most and one was PE and the other physics and chemistry....she can´t fucking get that in 12th in spain being a non-spaniard, because no matter how fucking much she wants it i will NEVER feel like a true fucking spaniard, i fail 3 out of 8 and i find it normal, ESPECIALLY having a pretty decent GPA.....jesus fucking christ i have people in my class that have failled 7 out of 8 and they aren´t GROUNDED....mother fucker......and yes, it´s more than one person too!!!!!!
fucking bitch
i just can´t get over the fact that i feel mediocre here and that the thing i truly most want is a) to go to college in the US or at least and english speaking country(i´d go to england too, for example),b)i want to study acting or dramatic art; and c) i just wanna get away from her fucking reach and live away from her because she´s driving me soooo fucking mad......the only option i MIGHT be able to complete is the third the way she´s trying to fucking control things!!!!!...........GGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
she´s wasted the 4 years that should have been my best just to try and make hersself happy in the meantime making me miserable and not getting how i feel at all here and when i try to tell her she makes me feel double bad by making me feel like i´m the bad person in the picture......go.to.fucking.hell.......she´s wasted those 4 years making me wanna slit and end this nightmare......and it´s been soooooooo hard not to...there are soooooo many ways a person can brew up for their own death it´s really scary sometimes and the willpower not to do it is inmense and overcoming and makes everything overwhelming, every breathe every thought every little movement scares you of what you might do to yourself.......she´s brought those type of thoughts on me in what should´ve been the 4 best remembered years of my life (years i´ll probably spend time talking about while laying on a leather couch in the future if you catch my drift)........
and now she wants me to spend another 4 years the same way but even lonelier
who wouldn´t grab a knife?
(rheutorical question people!)
why am i so double di dooper grounded....i failed 3 classes, ...but strangely i have a better gpa than the class average gpa.....hmmm....MAYBE IT´S FUCKING NORMAL THIS YEAR!!!!!!!! ...(in spain anywhooz)...and especially for me goddamit, she just doesn´t get i´m NOT gunna get the same grades as the people born and raised THEIR WHOLE LIVES over here....she just doesnt fucking get it...i think i´m doing pretty dandfy considering bitch!!!!....fucking-a!
anywhooz, just found out my brother, who HAS been allowed out every fucking day of the week and weekend, failed 8...out of 11...in 9th grade.....at that age i failed 2 at most and one was PE and the other physics and chemistry....she can´t fucking get that in 12th in spain being a non-spaniard, because no matter how fucking much she wants it i will NEVER feel like a true fucking spaniard, i fail 3 out of 8 and i find it normal, ESPECIALLY having a pretty decent GPA.....jesus fucking christ i have people in my class that have failled 7 out of 8 and they aren´t GROUNDED....mother fucker......and yes, it´s more than one person too!!!!!!
fucking bitch
i just can´t get over the fact that i feel mediocre here and that the thing i truly most want is a) to go to college in the US or at least and english speaking country(i´d go to england too, for example),b)i want to study acting or dramatic art; and c) i just wanna get away from her fucking reach and live away from her because she´s driving me soooo fucking mad......the only option i MIGHT be able to complete is the third the way she´s trying to fucking control things!!!!!...........GGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
she´s wasted the 4 years that should have been my best just to try and make hersself happy in the meantime making me miserable and not getting how i feel at all here and when i try to tell her she makes me feel double bad by making me feel like i´m the bad person in the picture......go.to.fucking.hell.......she´s wasted those 4 years making me wanna slit and end this nightmare......and it´s been soooooooo hard not to...there are soooooo many ways a person can brew up for their own death it´s really scary sometimes and the willpower not to do it is inmense and overcoming and makes everything overwhelming, every breathe every thought every little movement scares you of what you might do to yourself.......she´s brought those type of thoughts on me in what should´ve been the 4 best remembered years of my life (years i´ll probably spend time talking about while laying on a leather couch in the future if you catch my drift)........
and now she wants me to spend another 4 years the same way but even lonelier
who wouldn´t grab a knife?
(rheutorical question people!)