An epiphany.
I think I figured out what the "thing that has been on your mind for some time" that my tarot card reading alluded to way back in April. Actually, I think it may be a combination of two things. . .or one implies that the other should happen, more or less. Anyway, according to the cards, I'm supposed to make a decision about this in "early summer" (which it still is!) and from there, that clears the way to "meet somebody who isn't in your life yet, but will melt the wall that you have built around your heart."
If my hunches are correct, this decision will cause me to feel a hell of a lot better about myself and will jump start something that has really been bothering me for a few months now. The initial results of this decision may cause me to become somewhat moody at first, but I think in the long run it will benefit me--and my health--tremendously.
Bring it.
P. S. If you want to know what I'm talking about (as I'm being exceedingly cryptic), ask me privately off of this forum. No, I'm not leaving my job (which I love more than ANYTHING and can't wait to get back to in September, this time as a tenured teacher). And no, I'm still playing in many orchestral groups (I could never lose that part of me--EVER). It does have something to do with my health--no plastic surgery (yet). So now that I've narrowed it down, it's time to ask me privately. :P
If my hunches are correct, this decision will cause me to feel a hell of a lot better about myself and will jump start something that has really been bothering me for a few months now. The initial results of this decision may cause me to become somewhat moody at first, but I think in the long run it will benefit me--and my health--tremendously.
Bring it.
P. S. If you want to know what I'm talking about (as I'm being exceedingly cryptic), ask me privately off of this forum. No, I'm not leaving my job (which I love more than ANYTHING and can't wait to get back to in September, this time as a tenured teacher). And no, I'm still playing in many orchestral groups (I could never lose that part of me--EVER). It does have something to do with my health--no plastic surgery (yet). So now that I've narrowed it down, it's time to ask me privately. :P