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upon return from spending five days with lex and her mother we spent several more hours together being, well, some might say stupid, together - this proves that we don't hate each other, even after paris and this. however, i'll freely admit i am more comfortable when lex isn't being mean to her family (aka mother), but i do the same thing with out realizing it i'm sure, i'm not as bad as i was in middle school at least, i know that. lex and i just copied several cd's off of each other so i'm drowning in glorious amounts of music that's new to me and delicious.
things that i did on this vaca, in no particular order:
- saw 3 OSF plays (Humble Boy, Oedipus Complex, and The Royal Family)
- finished "Stranger in a Strange land"
- didn't read any history or do any french opps
- spent over $200 dollars (including plays and food)
- went to "bins" a really cheap and equally smelly Goodwill in Portland and bought $8.50ish of clothes, which means about 6 lbs., yes, they sell it by the pound, and it's all unwaaashed!!!
- became the proud owner of a black and white plaid corset that needs some fixing of the straps
- bought lots of other clothes . . . yea, i didn't need those at all
- decided that Reed is a worthwhile school to apply to, i'm not allowed to visit anymore colleges, i'll just end up wanting to go to them. YAY no focus!!
- saw "What the #!@? do We Know" an indy film that i'd wanted to see the time i was in ashland back in june, and i think we saw it on one of it's last showings, such luck!
- pondered for a lengthy time (we spent hours straight in the car!!!!!!!!!!) why exactly language works, it really shouldn't, why is it that one can understand what other people say when they have an accent, it's like we actually know several different spoken languages, and the writen version is just an over simplification, but then slang makes it all fuzzy and complicated again, it's better that way!
i wonder why they have a "full" but not an "empty" for the current mood options. are the options different if you have a different icon?
i'm tempted to call matt and talk to him late in the night, but i have to work tomorrow, so i think that i must resist, just know that i would talk to anyone if they called me now.
i'm not ready for summer to end, there's so much i have left to do, but i'm not dreading the start of school, the work and my unwillingness to do it won't be fun, but i know i can handle it, just like i have every year.
I'm feeling very positive right now, it's kinda nice.
i hope that you all are too.
i spread the "good word" while we were on the road, i gave the peace sign to lots of strangers and got lots of peace and smiles back, giving is recieving, although one should not expect to recieve because they have given.
what is the correct verb for "giving" a peace sign? there must be something that fits . . .
Humble Boy was a really good play, it used lots of snappy dialogue to convey a substantial idea at the core of the plot, and oedipus complex was nice because it combined to "things" which on there own can be dry (classic literature, and psychology that's too removed from everyday social life) to make a really interesting show, they did overuse the smoke machines a bit, but nothing too cliche.
i'm really bad at dealing with violence, i just don't understand it, i've never had any truly violent act directly affect my life, or me, i think it's an experience that is necessary for self understanding, but i don't think i shoul chase it. for that matter, i don't really understand bad luck, or sickness, or death, but i think that's my "fault", as long as you don't really love people who're closer to death you can't be hurt by their age.
this really wasn't supposed to be such a long post, i've just had so much time to grok soo much during this vacation, and i've been napping all day, so i'm not as tired as i should be. but i'm teetering on the edge of emotion, as full as i felt moments ago, i'm now ready to cry because i feel so empty, but it's all the same.
i think i should like to have a sister, or just a female presence in the household who wasn't awkward to hug, or maybe just a mother who didn't exhaust herself years ago, i suppose it's all the same in some way.
this should end now
things that i did on this vaca, in no particular order:
- saw 3 OSF plays (Humble Boy, Oedipus Complex, and The Royal Family)
- finished "Stranger in a Strange land"
- didn't read any history or do any french opps
- spent over $200 dollars (including plays and food)
- went to "bins" a really cheap and equally smelly Goodwill in Portland and bought $8.50ish of clothes, which means about 6 lbs., yes, they sell it by the pound, and it's all unwaaashed!!!
- became the proud owner of a black and white plaid corset that needs some fixing of the straps
- bought lots of other clothes . . . yea, i didn't need those at all
- decided that Reed is a worthwhile school to apply to, i'm not allowed to visit anymore colleges, i'll just end up wanting to go to them. YAY no focus!!
- saw "What the #!@? do We Know" an indy film that i'd wanted to see the time i was in ashland back in june, and i think we saw it on one of it's last showings, such luck!
- pondered for a lengthy time (we spent hours straight in the car!!!!!!!!!!) why exactly language works, it really shouldn't, why is it that one can understand what other people say when they have an accent, it's like we actually know several different spoken languages, and the writen version is just an over simplification, but then slang makes it all fuzzy and complicated again, it's better that way!
i wonder why they have a "full" but not an "empty" for the current mood options. are the options different if you have a different icon?
i'm tempted to call matt and talk to him late in the night, but i have to work tomorrow, so i think that i must resist, just know that i would talk to anyone if they called me now.
i'm not ready for summer to end, there's so much i have left to do, but i'm not dreading the start of school, the work and my unwillingness to do it won't be fun, but i know i can handle it, just like i have every year.
I'm feeling very positive right now, it's kinda nice.
i hope that you all are too.
i spread the "good word" while we were on the road, i gave the peace sign to lots of strangers and got lots of peace and smiles back, giving is recieving, although one should not expect to recieve because they have given.
what is the correct verb for "giving" a peace sign? there must be something that fits . . .
Humble Boy was a really good play, it used lots of snappy dialogue to convey a substantial idea at the core of the plot, and oedipus complex was nice because it combined to "things" which on there own can be dry (classic literature, and psychology that's too removed from everyday social life) to make a really interesting show, they did overuse the smoke machines a bit, but nothing too cliche.
i'm really bad at dealing with violence, i just don't understand it, i've never had any truly violent act directly affect my life, or me, i think it's an experience that is necessary for self understanding, but i don't think i shoul chase it. for that matter, i don't really understand bad luck, or sickness, or death, but i think that's my "fault", as long as you don't really love people who're closer to death you can't be hurt by their age.
this really wasn't supposed to be such a long post, i've just had so much time to grok soo much during this vacation, and i've been napping all day, so i'm not as tired as i should be. but i'm teetering on the edge of emotion, as full as i felt moments ago, i'm now ready to cry because i feel so empty, but it's all the same.
i think i should like to have a sister, or just a female presence in the household who wasn't awkward to hug, or maybe just a mother who didn't exhaust herself years ago, i suppose it's all the same in some way.
this should end now