Thundersnow 2006 and then some....
Well. I pretty much had the worst weekend ever. Except for Saturday night where I ate lots of ice cream and watched The Sound of Music with my favorites Caitlin and Meg B.
So not only did I have to drive in and pick my brother up during Thursday night's Thundersnow...but I had to go out again at 2:30am and pick my parents up at the Airport. I have never been more scared in my entire life. I got snuck in the snow and had to drive the wrong way on the 400 and the 90....it was just a huge mess and I didn't get home until 6 am. But the important thing was I made it and I was safe and my parents were safe. They had to cancel their trip to visit Brooke which was really sad because I know how much they wanted to go and see her.
I had lots of surprises planned for this weekend. The first step towards being spontaneous...I was planning my spontaneity. Haha. I had two days off and I was loving life. Then the bad weather happened...and I wish I could solely blame everything on that. I don't know what happened but I was completely blindsided. One minute everything was great and the next it all crumbled at my feet. I didn't even know what to say. I was completely speechless which if you know me rarely happens. I am sitting here thinking about the conversation and I still can't make any sense of it. How can someone say they want to be with someone but then not? Like that's not even a reason to break up with someone..."I can't do this anymore because I want to be with you." I feel like I didn't even get a chance to try and fix things...but then of course I got the "it's me...not you" speech which I will never believe. So what do I do? Do I fight it? I don't ever want to convince someone to be with me. That's no fun at all.
I need time to grow into a relationship...I can't just jump in like some people. Jumping in is a recipe for disaster and I have plenty of friends who have witnessed all of them. So I guess all I can do is let go. Again. I seem to be doing a lot of that lately. And if it is meant to be it will work itself out...but I refuse to be that girl. And I am sure you all know what girl I am speaking of. :-P
So not only did I have to drive in and pick my brother up during Thursday night's Thundersnow...but I had to go out again at 2:30am and pick my parents up at the Airport. I have never been more scared in my entire life. I got snuck in the snow and had to drive the wrong way on the 400 and the 90....it was just a huge mess and I didn't get home until 6 am. But the important thing was I made it and I was safe and my parents were safe. They had to cancel their trip to visit Brooke which was really sad because I know how much they wanted to go and see her.
I had lots of surprises planned for this weekend. The first step towards being spontaneous...I was planning my spontaneity. Haha. I had two days off and I was loving life. Then the bad weather happened...and I wish I could solely blame everything on that. I don't know what happened but I was completely blindsided. One minute everything was great and the next it all crumbled at my feet. I didn't even know what to say. I was completely speechless which if you know me rarely happens. I am sitting here thinking about the conversation and I still can't make any sense of it. How can someone say they want to be with someone but then not? Like that's not even a reason to break up with someone..."I can't do this anymore because I want to be with you." I feel like I didn't even get a chance to try and fix things...but then of course I got the "it's me...not you" speech which I will never believe. So what do I do? Do I fight it? I don't ever want to convince someone to be with me. That's no fun at all.
I need time to grow into a relationship...I can't just jump in like some people. Jumping in is a recipe for disaster and I have plenty of friends who have witnessed all of them. So I guess all I can do is let go. Again. I seem to be doing a lot of that lately. And if it is meant to be it will work itself out...but I refuse to be that girl. And I am sure you all know what girl I am speaking of. :-P