Oct 24, 2006 09:31
well, its just funny how you think you never do anything wrong. AT ALL. why don't you take resposibility for the things that you do? i am the one whos wrong in this. as usual. you did nothing. right? wrong. at least i can admit to my mistakes and my wrongs. it's always somebody else's fault with you. and you can sit there and keep writing in your little journal and pretending that you're the victim, when really, YOU AREN'T. i'm not digging for secrets. but i do know a few things i could say, just be a fucking bitch like you have to me. HMM.. WHAT ABOUT THAT BOTTLE OF PILLS YOU STOLE FROM YOUR AUNT? how about that? how about we tell her to go check her cupboard for those vicoden.. oh oops. they won't be there cause you stole them. i've never stolen pills from ANYONE. but does that make me better than you? no. just because i made some stupid decisions in my life, that aren't even any of your fucking business, but you choose to advertise them on the internet, you think you're better than me. you see, you are no better than me, or anyone else around here. you do drugs too. you like to get fucked up too. just like everyone else. we are all fucking equal. you're just too stuck up your own ass to see that. you always have been. you're a snob. you're rude to people like dan, then you call him up and think you can get something? WRONG. stop being so self involved. it makes me want to vomit. and i am not the only one who sees this, about 10 other people see it too. i didn't want to stoop to your level and write shit on my LJ, but if thats what it takes for you to read this, and maybe think ABOUT IT, then whatever. here it is. you know, what i said to piss you off so badly that you had to advertise something i told you in confidence on a public website, wasn't even that bad. it was about someone whom you don't even know anything about, who you have made fun of and made rude comments about.. so why do you even care. oops, i was drunk and i slipped and told him the truth. that doesn't make me a bad person. and just because of that stupid little PETTY* argument, once again, you go and try to advertise shit on FUCKING LIVEJOURNAL. HOW THE FUCK WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOUR SO-CALLED BEST FRIEND DID THAT TO YOU? THINK ABOUT IT. YOU WOULDN'T FUCKING LIKE IT ONE BIT. no matter how mad any one of my friends makes me, i would NEVER, EVER WRITE PERSONAL SHIT ABOUT THEM ON THE INTERNET, NOR WOULD I RUN MY MOUTH TELLING PEOPLE SHIT ABOUT THEM I SHOULDN'T BE. i mean, who the fuck do you think you are anyway? you have no fucking conscience, what so ever. friends don't take something you've told them and trusted them with, and go and blab it to the whole god damn town. and in a small town like this? fuck. you know everyones gonna be running their fucking TRAPS. and if anyone has anything they want to ask me, or say to me, come to me and say it. i do what i think is right. i've discussed my situation with several people, and they don't agree with me just because they're my friends. well, that and because they feel i did the right thing. but in return, i get this bitch that is supposed to be my friend running her chops on the internet, trying to RUIN MY REPUATATION. and not to mention, my little sister reads her journal. COOL?? yeah, i thought so. and maybe this isn't just so you can read it. i wrote this all down for me too. and when i catch up with you, i'm just gonna spit a big fat loogie right in your fucking face. cause thats what you deserve. you disrespected me, expect to get the same in return.
like i said in my previous entry, i am in the process of straightening my life out. i've had some very, very hard times over the past 3-4 years. i've been through a lifetimes worth of tragedies. (rob,donny,kayla, and ESPECIALLY RYAN). i know i only have myself to blame for the decisions i've made, but i just got lost along the way.. with all the shit that was happening in my life, i got lost. so fucking sue me, okay?