its not that no one listens... i just try opening up to people who dont feel like listening...

[megnandwhatnot]

i try to be a nice person.
i try make sure that people are having good days, and if they arent, i try to make them good.
i try really hard.
i listen to peoples problems.
i listen to peoples feelings.
i listen to people talk about whats going on in their lives for hours on end and i try to be as helpful to them as i can.
but what happens when i have a problem?
i dont want to bring it up.
i dont want people to think i just want pitty.
i dont want people to think im complaining.
no one wants to talk about it.
i dont even want to talk about it.
so for once when i open up to someone who i always listen to, i just want them to listen to me.
just once.
because its just a lot for one person to think about all the time, and it gets hard.
and i thought maybe if i talked about it once, i would feel a little better and maybe be able to forget for just a little bit longer...
i hate opening up.
i just kind of feel like its not really important and that people dont care.
ive been dealing with this for a long time now and its getting to the point that i cant ignore it like i used to be able to.
just... forget it... i dont even want to talk about it anymore...