High School
The infamous Ms. Paige crossed my mind this afternoon as I pondered everything going on in my life. She assigned a "reflection period" where we wrote down things that we disliked or wanted to let go off on a piece of paper. The wacky women proceeded to collect the papers and compile them into a paper-bag. The class was held in suspense as she led us outside. The cleansing was burning all of our worries.What a woman! So today, I thought I would revisit that concept...in complete honesty. Granted, not in any significant order.
My List:
1) College credits, 19 to be exact!
2) Midterm exams, enough said.
3) The pety drama I encounter living with back-stabbing girls. Last time I checked, being a middle-man wasnt fun.
4) Being a servant to my commanding/controlling roommate aka being used.
5) Im not asking for appreciation but maybe some recognition would be nice.
6) FIRES.. three just this year?!
7) My parents fighting every day and considering a divorce. Lovely conversations on the phone resulting in them forcing me to pick sides. :( Im scared and speechless.
8) Missing the fact of not being a kid and playing with my brothers.
9) Responsibility of everyone. Mommy Meg is tired of it.
10) Coming home one weekend to find your "best friend" has moved on and our bff relationship was a thing in the past.I understand High School pressures and your other friends seem to be a priority, but what happened to us? I dont even know who you are anymore. Loss of communication is killing me and there has been little effort on your part;Ive done mine. All I wanted was a phone call, note, or email. I just want you to be happy.
11) Going to a home basketball game and have people throw crap from the past into your face countless times..I get that I was and never will be good enough.
12) Being away from my friends (tracy, jess, peter, adam, ames, gwalt, jess, jer,TIM, kayla...)
13) Time
14) This selfish world..people are so inconsiderate sometimes!
15) Valentines Day
16) Working out until Im faint or dizzy.
17) Boys in general...true lesbian at heart will never steer me wrong.
18) Being invisable.
19) Not being able to get my heart out of my head.
20) Working
21) Having a poor immune system.
22) Rumors and gossip about me.
23) Having no control of my future.
As you can see, I have a LOT on my mind. All reasons why I find it hard to sleep at night. Its hump day.
My List:
1) College credits, 19 to be exact!
2) Midterm exams, enough said.
3) The pety drama I encounter living with back-stabbing girls. Last time I checked, being a middle-man wasnt fun.
4) Being a servant to my commanding/controlling roommate aka being used.
5) Im not asking for appreciation but maybe some recognition would be nice.
6) FIRES.. three just this year?!
7) My parents fighting every day and considering a divorce. Lovely conversations on the phone resulting in them forcing me to pick sides. :( Im scared and speechless.
8) Missing the fact of not being a kid and playing with my brothers.
9) Responsibility of everyone. Mommy Meg is tired of it.
10) Coming home one weekend to find your "best friend" has moved on and our bff relationship was a thing in the past.I understand High School pressures and your other friends seem to be a priority, but what happened to us? I dont even know who you are anymore. Loss of communication is killing me and there has been little effort on your part;Ive done mine. All I wanted was a phone call, note, or email. I just want you to be happy.
11) Going to a home basketball game and have people throw crap from the past into your face countless times..I get that I was and never will be good enough.
12) Being away from my friends (tracy, jess, peter, adam, ames, gwalt, jess, jer,TIM, kayla...)
13) Time
14) This selfish world..people are so inconsiderate sometimes!
15) Valentines Day
16) Working out until Im faint or dizzy.
17) Boys in general...true lesbian at heart will never steer me wrong.
18) Being invisable.
19) Not being able to get my heart out of my head.
20) Working
21) Having a poor immune system.
22) Rumors and gossip about me.
23) Having no control of my future.
As you can see, I have a LOT on my mind. All reasons why I find it hard to sleep at night. Its hump day.