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So life is looking pretty good these days. I don't know what it is. One day I am down and mad at myself for the way I am and today I am feeling great. I did more art tonight and I really liked it. Its an apron that I am going to wear for art. Its an art style apron and not a long cooking apron. The fabric paint was a bit pricey--but it is so worth it I think it looks amazing! I am almost out of some of the colors, but I want to keep the bottles so I have squeeze bottles still for the colors I rean out of. Then I will refill the bottles--if I decide to keep doing this.
I am going to regret being up this late, but i reallly want to write on here about this. Lately I have been wanting to say some things on here, but then it seems so personal that I should get a counselor or tell someone in person so I get feedback...so I haven't written lately due to that whole factor.
But this canvas and apron painting is so exciting. I am finally getting excited for my trip to the philipines. I really am going to have a blast. I know it will be a challenge and I know that it won't be easy but I will learn so much that I can't wait. Although I still have a TON to do before I leave. I need to pack up all my stuff, and put it in the storage unit at my new place for next fall. THen I need to take home the rest of the stuff that I want for the summer and not stored away for the summer--clothes, etc. I stil have to pack and get everything ready for the Philippines. I have a much better idea of what to pack now thanks to some emails...but I am still nervous about getting it all. I don't know if I have enough of the right clothes to start with...so I have to start packing and then see what else I need...But I don't want to buy a bunch of stuff I won't wear again...it is going to be hot apparently...but then freezing in the AC so I still need warm clothes in one sense. What we are doing is all still up in the air for me...but it should all work out. I know it will.
I want to be more adventerous. Any ideas of what I could do to break out of my bubble of SAFENESS? I don't want to do anything that may cause later regrets of course...but I need to do something to help myself grow up and be less dependant on every single other person in my life. OK enough said. I need to sleep now. I have shots tomorrow morning and then I have to babysit right after and then I have to actually study for my final I have on Friday.
I am going to regret being up this late, but i reallly want to write on here about this. Lately I have been wanting to say some things on here, but then it seems so personal that I should get a counselor or tell someone in person so I get feedback...so I haven't written lately due to that whole factor.
But this canvas and apron painting is so exciting. I am finally getting excited for my trip to the philipines. I really am going to have a blast. I know it will be a challenge and I know that it won't be easy but I will learn so much that I can't wait. Although I still have a TON to do before I leave. I need to pack up all my stuff, and put it in the storage unit at my new place for next fall. THen I need to take home the rest of the stuff that I want for the summer and not stored away for the summer--clothes, etc. I stil have to pack and get everything ready for the Philippines. I have a much better idea of what to pack now thanks to some emails...but I am still nervous about getting it all. I don't know if I have enough of the right clothes to start with...so I have to start packing and then see what else I need...But I don't want to buy a bunch of stuff I won't wear again...it is going to be hot apparently...but then freezing in the AC so I still need warm clothes in one sense. What we are doing is all still up in the air for me...but it should all work out. I know it will.
I want to be more adventerous. Any ideas of what I could do to break out of my bubble of SAFENESS? I don't want to do anything that may cause later regrets of course...but I need to do something to help myself grow up and be less dependant on every single other person in my life. OK enough said. I need to sleep now. I have shots tomorrow morning and then I have to babysit right after and then I have to actually study for my final I have on Friday.